on 14 May 2013
4.5 amazeballs stars!!!
I loved loved loved this book...it was heart wrenchingly emotionally beautiful. I couldn't put it down and was gutted when I saw "The End"...however, Nicole if you are reading this that seriously cannot be the end...I hardly ever relish having to wait for a sequel but this book NEEDS a sequel in fact it DEMANDS a sequel...it was a sort of HEA ending but nowhere near enough...no epilogue and a story so open ended that it needs Nicole to start pressing some keys that says...the continuation of Rowen and Jesse...thanks and breatheeeeeee....right where was I???
Oh yes, Rowen...misunderstood because of her appearance you could call her trouble, goth, druggie or as most call her "a freak" she uses her clothing etc as a disguise to hide the true Rowen... underneath all that black there is a lovely girl just waiting to escape... she lived with her "mum" very loosely called that as she is never there for her..and after having suffered something that happened when she was younger Rowen became a virtual recluse within herself and used drugs, alcohol and boys as a way of forgetting..her grades slipped and her mother has all but given up on her. Rowen however finds her release through art and badly wants to attend art school, it does cost a lot but Rowen's mum is not prepared to pay for it unless Rowen can prove herself worthy. Her mum packs her off to her old school friends ranch to play cowboys for the summer, she has to prove that over the summer she can work her butt off and clean up her act.
Rowen has just endured a tortuous journey on the Greyhound bus and is waiting for one of the ranch hands to pick her up...in strides Jesse Walker...a cowboy with the tightest pair of Wranglers, that show off the tightest arse....she is in lust/love!!! Jesse is a 19 year old cowboy..he works for his parents on the ranch..he is nothing like her usual attractions, he is gorgeous, he has a positive attitude, he works hard, he loves his family, he is affectionate, he sees the real her, he pays her compliments she is totally screwed!!
She is put to work on the ranch with 4am starts, but she throws herself in and gives it her all, she actually relishes her time there enjoying being part of a family, something that she has never felt for a very long time...slowly but surely Jesse begins to eat at the walls that she has carefully constructed around herself...
"Why don't you want to know that I like you Rowen??? Why don't you want me to tell you I'm so damn attracted to you, I almost don't trust myself to be alone with you like we are right now???? Why don't you want to know that I care about you so much????"
This starts a beautifully written story about a girl with such low self esteem that it would take years of drilling to find it beginning a journey of self discovery..not only about how to love others but to also love herself..the Walker family are extremely tight and no matter what they treated Rowen as one of her own, Jesse's mum knew what Rowen's mum was like and she always gave her the most heart felt and best advice she could..slowly but surely Rowen came out of her shell and began to find herself.
Jesse was just adorable, I loved him so much...he too had his past, one that meant he hadn't lead the ideal life that Rowen once thought he had. He had overcome his obstacles and demons and could see the same with Rowen..he had also had his heart broken with his first true love so he also had his worries with regards to a new relationship, but they had this chemistry that was not going to go away...the sort of chemistry whereby they knew each other was close...they could tell what each other was thinking and they both eventually realised what they had was special.
Eventually they both opened up to each other and Jesse's family and whilst Rowen thought that the family would be mortified that their only son would fall in love with her, they didn't..they could tell before Rowen and Jesse that there was something there, so it came as no shock.
"We don't deserve anything Rowen. We don't deserve punishment, we don't deserve happiness, life owes us nothing. Realize that" His voice wasn't gentle anymore; it was as strong as I'd ever heard it. "So we have to take what we want because life sure as shit isn't going to freely hand it over" . He kissed the skin above my collar bone........"and I want you".
This book was so emotional, it dripped off the page...the swoon factor with Jesse was huge he was just such a darling...oh and a virgin!!!! How refreshing that the male lead has the big "V"...they do a lot of kissing and I mean a lot of kissing and even that got me hot under the collar..but the tenderness in losing the big "v" was beautiful..I just loved it all..loved it loved it loved it!!!!!!
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on 28 July 2015
Loved this story, city girl gets sent to her parents friends farm to work out her so called attitude and prove herself and work hard, the plan wasnt to fall in love with a the cowboy.
Jesse was so lovely and sweet almost like you kept waiting for a catch but it never came.
Rowen was a feisty speak her mind type of character, wore dark clothes, great individuality but the reason for the darkness beneath the clothes was something Jesse was going to unfold making this the heartwarming read it was.
Currently free on Amazon along with Garth's story, now Garth was a dark soul and I cant wait to read his story
Although this seems to have HEA there is a continuation of the story after this so you can continue to follow the relationship and I presume the highs and lows that may follow.
on 11 September 2014
For the fact that this is was a freebie - it was a BAR-GAIN!!!
So pleased that I stumbled across this.
Rowen is kinda blackmailed by her mum to spend the summer with her mum's friend helping out on their family ranch so that she can finally go to Art School.
Rowen is the anti-thesis of anything country - a pure bred city girl.
Having had a bit of a bad experience a few years previous, the now 18 yo Rowen is dressed H2T in black and describes herself as goth, emo, or her favourite "freak".
She is very much judged by her appearance - but she has so many walls around her (to protect herself because of the said bad experience) that she likes it like that. A self-preservation move. She doesn't get involved so she doesn't get hurt.
However, the family she stays with are sweet and wholesome and nothing like the sort of people Rowen has encountered. They don't judge, they take her for who she is and love her unconditionally.
Rowen sort of struggles to deal with this outpouring of emotion, toward her, and for what she is experiencing herself. The angsty, angry girl is replaced by someone who wants to love, and be loved!
So I haven't told you about the love interest!
Jesse the wrangler-wearing cowboy! Phew! I am old in comparison, but seriously I felt the heat off the pages! And I read on a kindle!
Such great writing.
I cannot begin to believe that the follow up will be anywhere close to being as good as this. I am not complaining, because this is a lovely coming-of-age story. I love the character that Rowen becomes, with Jesse and his family as her guide. She really does earn the HEA.
On to the next one!!!
on 1 August 2014
This was recommended to me and I was very glad I got to read it.
I fell in love with Rowen Sterling, the girl with a million and one issues to deal with. The ‘freak’ everyone tells her she is, is what she tries to live up to. Until her mother sends her away to stay with her old college friend and her family in the middle of nowhere for the summer. This is where she not only meets Jessie but his loving family which to Rowen is a totally foreign concept. Rose, her mothers friend and mother to Jessie, Lily, Hyacinth and Clementine is definitely the opposite of her own mother.
Rowen tries not to take an interest in Jessie but she is fighting a losing battle, until she ends up drunk with his ex best friend Garth Black. After living in the dark for so long, being called a freak, druggy, whore and more she believes this is what she is and she should not want more for herself as she doesn’t deserve it.
Jessie finally makes her see sense with the help of all the love around her from all directions, even Jessies ex, that she is definitely worth more. Whether her mother sees it or not.
I really enjoyed reading this and am looking forward to reading the second part.
on 2 December 2013
'My whole life was shifting, like I was experiencing my own personal earthquake. I felt the plates shifting and rearranging below the surface. I felt the fire and heat molding and shaping them. I felt change, whether I wanted it or not. It was happening, and I might as well embrace it.'
This book was recommended to me a few days ago via Goodreads, and when I saw that it was only 77p on Amazon I thought; why not? This is my first romance book with cowboys and I have to say, it's time I read some more. I finished this book within a few days and loved every bit of it.
It's not often I give five stars to a book. For me, five star reviews are for the rare books that keep me coming back for more every time I put the book down, and keep me thinking about it when I'm away from it. They also need to have something special about them; something different from the other books I've read. I've read a lot of Romance books lately, but something about this one just stood out for me.
There were a lot of things that were different in this story. Unfortunately I can't go into them in my review, as they would be major spoilers. There was one part of the story that was predictable however. We're introduced to Garth Black early on in the story and it's clear that there's some bad vibes between him and Jesse. It's not entirely clear why until close to the end of the book, but it was certainly hinted at, and I guessed correctly.However, there were so many twists, turns and shocks in this book that I lost count.
Rowen is a lovely character. She's deeply troubled and holds a lot of emotions inside. It's so nice to see her open up during the story. She finally feels wanted and loved at Willow Springs, after many years of feeling unwanted and rejected at home. At first, it's hard for her to understand why the Walkers are so kind to her, and why they even want her around in the first place. But it's not long until she understands that the Walkers are just some of the kindest people she'll ever know. I really felt myself connecting with Rowen, as we all have times when we don't feel wanted, or we hide our true selves from others. Rowen was easy to connect with, as she's just an ordinary girl who's had a really tough time, and she feels the same insecurities that most girls feel at some point in their lives.
I absolutely loved Jesse. He's kind to Rowen from the first day of meeting her and he doesn't judge her as most people do. It's clear that he has his own issues but he doesn't let them affect those around him. He's protective over Rowen, but not possessive which makes a nice change in this type of book. Quite often in romance novels, the male character is incredibly overbearing and possessive, but Jesse is none of these things. Their relationship is lovely to watch, they enjoy each other's company, they make each other laugh, but they also test each other.
Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed this book and would recommend it to anyone looking for romance with a difference. There's darkness and sadness in this story, but there's also love, happiness and of course, there's Cowboys.
on 8 May 2013
I did really love this book, I fell in love with jesse, however, the reason for the missing star is the ending. Although it was ended well, I wanted an epilogue of what would have happened a few years down the line as them as proper adults, maybe with their own kids etc. Still a gripping read, if you love romance buy yourself a copy!
on 6 August 2013
Rowen Sterling has been shipped off to Willow Spring a small town in the middle of nowhere, to spend the summer working for Rose Walker and old friend of her mothers. If Rowan can prove herself and work hard and stay out of trouble, then her mother has agreed to pay for her to attend art school. Going to art school is all Rowen has ever wanted to do it is her dream and so here she is about to begin working on a ranch for the summer, and while she is not happy about it, it's the last thing she actually wants to do until she meets Rose's son Jesse who is unlike any other guys she has ever met, he gets under her skin, and just maybe this summer won't be so bad after all.
Rowen is a bit of a mess up girl; she spent the last five years living a reckless life, label as a freak, she uses boys, alcohol destructive behavior to numb out the pain from a secret that she wants to keep hidden. Hiding behind the dark makeup and the dark clothes, is a girl who has built up walls to keep everyone away, who is lost, broken. I really liked her, as she was smart, funny girl who didn't care what others thought.
"A long time ago, I'd learned I was good at "handling" life. I didn't excel at it, and I certainly didn't thrive at it, but I could handle life and everything it had thrown at me. My secret? I'd simply accepted that life was pain."~ Rowen
Jesse, is a sweet, he is cute, charming, smart, hard working, and all-round good guy that you are going to love. There is something about him, has a lot of wisdom and seem much older than his 19 years, and best of all he is a cowboy yes ma'am he really is. As soon as he meets Rowen he can see that there is a lot more to her than the person she is portraying.
"I've only known you a couple of days. That's not that long at all. I don't know you well enough to pretend like I know you and your problems. But I want to know you. I want to know your problems. That is... if you want to know me." ~ Jesse
I loved this storyline, about self-discovery. It had a little drama but not too much as it actually was about a two people falling in love. It made me smile and laugh. Rowen and Jesse of opposite in every sense of the word, she is the bad girl, and he is the golden boy, but you know what they say `opposites attract' and these two really do.
"Why don't you want to know that I like you, Rowen? Why don't you want me to tell you I'm so damn attracted to you, I almost don't trust myself to be alone with you like we are right now? Why don't you want to know that I care about you so much...?" ~Jesse
I love watching Rowen and Jesse's friendship grow into something more. Jesse sees nothing but good in Rowen, he doesn't care about her past, he is always paying her complement, and not in a cheesy way. He believes in her even when she does not; let her know it's okay to be loved. Rowen is not used to being treated this way it's all new to her, and when she tries to push him away she can't, every time she is around him she feel her walls coming down. She knows she can open her heart to Jesse and let him in, trust him with her secret, and he will not judge her.
"He didn't study me like I was something different and scary. He looked at me like I was a human being, no different from himself, and yet unique just the same" ~Rowen
"We all want to open up to someone, Rowen. The hard part is finding someone we trust enough to open up to. That person we're not afraid to let into the darkest parts of our world."~ Jesse
I loved the rest of the Walker family, being part of a family is new to Rowen. Rose the mother Rowen never had, she is such a special lady, and you can see where Jesse gets his wisdom. They all open their hearts and home to Rowen, they are caring, they ask no questions and accept her for whom she is, they are the support that Rowen needs and especially when her mother comes to visit. I don't think I will give away any spoilers when I tell you she is another woman who will not be winning a mother of the year award any time soon. Oh and I wasn't a fan of Garth, but I do think he has a story to tell.
"Every morning we get a chance to be different. A chance to change. A chance to be better. Your past is your past. Leave it there. Get on with the future part, honey." ~ Rose
Overall I loved this story, Nicole William has written a wonderful book that truly draws you in and gives you characters that you are going to fall in love with. I was captivated from the start, and this love story beyond doubt warmed my heart. While Rowen and Jesse's story are far from over, I like the ending it was as it should be. I can recommend this book enough. I'm off now to read my ARC copy of Near and Far to see what is next in store for Rowen and Jesse.
Lost and Found get 5 stars from me.
Nicole Williams has cemented herself in my heart as one of my `must read' authors. She proved she is queen of the brooding, angst driven bad boy with Cole from Up In Flames and Jude from the Crash series. In Lost & Found she has managed a switch-a-rooney with her characters, enter angst driven Rowen and walking sunshine itself, Jesse Walker. Cowboys have never been so hot :)
Told in first person narrative from Rowen's point of view. Sent to work on her mother's friends ranch for the summer after numerous `bad girl' incidents, that are more cries for attention than anything else. She has a very strained relationship with her mother. Whom I absolutely hated, she's a completely self-absorbed bitch, constantly deeming Rowen when she should have been nurturing her. It is easy to understand Rowen's behaviour and the barriers she has in place in light of the treatment she has received from her mother. An incident a few years earlier is hinted at concerning the trigger for Rowen's behaviour, the revelation doesn't come until later in the story. Rowen is the prime example of a self-fulfilling prophecy, she feels she may as well act out as that is all her mother sees her as anyway :( She is full of self-loathing.
Jesse is the complete opposite of Rowen; optimistic and charismatic, his good looks are just the icing on the cake where Jesse is concerned, although he does possess some serious swagger to go with it. Jesse has his own back story it is only touched upon in this book. The attraction between them is instantaneous, I adored their flirty banter *swoon*. Jesse sees Rowen in such a way that makes her re-evaluate the way she thinks about herself.
It is Rowen's character development that is the cornerstone of this story. However, she would not have be able to overcome the negative effect her mother has had on her without the love and care of the Walker family. The nurturing and care they provide gives Rowen a foundation on which to rebuild her self-esteem. The narrative is very pro-nurture, making a heart warming story, the Walker's acceptance of Rowen and ability to see beyond Rowen's barriers open up a whole new world of (good) emotions for her.
The peripheral characters are all extremely well developed. Nicole creates such realistic characters that get under your skin, you can't help but care for each and every one of them (yes even Garth). I was emotionally invested in each of them, I cried with them, I laughed with them and I fell in love with them :) I literally adore each and every character Nicole creates, I don't think you can get higher praise than that.
Confession: I struggled to write my review as I kept thinking about the characters and what I wanted to say about them, it got to me so much that I had to go and re-read the book so I could spend more time with them :)
on 2 August 2013
I often find that authors tend to have the same writing style and tone to most of their books, making all of them feel the same and making them identifiable with that author, which isn't necessarily a bad thing.
However, I love how Nicole Williams has the amazing ability to make every book she releases `feel' completely different from the last, with a different tone and writing style each time, making each of her books completely different.
Lost and Found did just that. The writing style and tone of the book made the story feel almost homely (if that makes any sense) with a country setting and country feel, it was a breath of fresh air to read and completely captivated me.
I don't think I've ever read about a character quite like Rowen Sterling. Jaded and bitter because of the way people treat her due to the way she dresses and the way they think she is, she acts like she doesn't care what others think and rebels against everything around her when in fact she craves acceptance. Disappointed by life and the people in it she has pretty much given up, convincing herself that she doesn't deserve anything but pain.
We don't deserve anything Rowen. We don't deserve punishment, we don't deserve happiness, life owes us nothing. Realize that."
When she is shipped off to the Montana countryside for the summer to convince her mother that she can work hard and stay out of trouble at her friends ranch, she is determined to do her best so that her mother will stick to her end of the bargain and pay for Rowen to go to art school. Sticking out like a sore thumb with her black clothes and black lipstick, she is surprised to find that unlike back at home, her word is accepted, she is trusted and she is treated like part of a family, something she has never experienced before.
"Every morning we get a chance to be different. A chance to change. A chance to be better. Your past is your past. Leave it there. Get on with the future part, honey."
I loved how Rowen didn't follow the crowd, not being what they wanted but being who she wanted, even if that wasn't who she really was. She was a complete contradiction and two sided character, on the outside she is hard as nails, self assured and not caring what others think, but on the inside she is a scared little girl who wants to be loved and wants things in her life to be better. At times I hated her self pitying attitude and self destructive ways as for the majority of the time it felt like the only person stopping her from being happy was her. I desperately wanted Rowen to let everything else go and concentrate on the things she did have in her life including Jesse. Although I can completely understand how hard it would be to accept having a mother who didn't care and who would go as far as to purposefully emotionally hurt her daughter time and time again!
Now if everything I have already told you isn't enough to get you to read this book, Jesse Walker certainly is! A cowboy with tight jeans, a sexy smile, and a positive attitude, he was the complete opposite of anyone Rowen ever imagined herself ending up with, however once he gets under her skin there is no going back. Affectionate and loving towards her, paying her compliments any chance he gets, Rowen finds it difficult to believe that she is deserving of someone as amazing as Jesse and because of this tries her best to push him away.
...when I looked into those eyes of his that saw everything, those eyes that saw me, I knew the fight would be worth it. The struggle to let him in when I wanted to barricade the windows and lower the gates would be a battle I'd never regret fighting.
Their relationship is a complete journey of discovery for Rowen as she slowly begins to change, finding herself, a family who loves her and a place she finally belongs. Jesse is like a light in her darkness and pushes her to see herself how he see's her, never accepting her negative attitude of misconceptions of herself.
"We will all, at some point in our lives, fall. Every single one of us." He hoisted himself up beside me and moved closer. "We shouldn't spend our time trying to avoid falling. We should spend it finding someone who will help us up."
This was an amazing, heartwarming story about accepting yourself and finding the good out of life. Rowen was an amazing character who although believed that she didn't deserve it, desperately wanted to receive unconditional love, so when Jesse and his family show her it she is incredibly weary and first has to accept that she is in fact worthy of it.
I cannot recommend this book enough and am so excited to read the next one. It was an unexpected gem which has quickly become one of my favourite reads!
on 12 December 2013
This book took me totally by surprise and I absolutely loved it. I had no expectations going in not really knowing what it was about but having heard it had good reviews and boy was I glad I listened.
Rowen Sterling is a "Freak", or at least that's how everyone judges her, but it doesn't matter because she is used to it. In order to get her mum to pay for Art School for her in the autumn she agrees to go and work on a Ranch for the summer which is owned by her Mum's old friend.
Not being close to her own mum, or anyone really, she is at first overwhelmed when she turns up at the ranch and is welcomed with open arms as part of the family already. Then there is Jesse Walker, the typical cowboy and complete polar opposite to her. He is the guy that everyone adores, and his killer good looks don't hurt that either.
She doesn't want to like him, but the more she gets to know him, the more she can't help it. It is definitely a summer that will change her life in more ways than one.
Any more than this and i would be writing spoilers which I hate to do, so I will just leave you with this. Listen to the ratings, read the book!