I wrote a revieuw about this book where I said that it was so good to read that a woman who has been a spiritual example to me, also has dry periods, where the juice just doesn't flow. This is the mood at the start of the book: I am here , it's a grey afternoon in New York and I feel God has left the building. Most of the book is about her way back, towards a present God . Very moving and real. I love it.