This book was a sad, poignant tale of how past tragedies and distant memories can surface when we least expect them to. It focuses on Edie, middle child to parents Louise and Vic. Edie's childhood is filled with love and security as she grows up in the midst of a comfortable chaos that three daughters ultimately bring to a household. But her beautiful, elegant mother and quiet, gentle father are always there to protect and care for her. At the age of sixteen Edie meets Ricky and she experiences the passion and tenderness of first love, but tragedy is around the corner and soon something happens that will shape Edie's destiny and destroy her childhood innocence.
The story is told in two parts, the first recalling Edie's childhood and the second looking back twenty years later, remembering those distant memories and observing the past as it finally catches up with the present. It is a sad tale, but beautifully told, simmering with memories of more innocent times. Gerrard's description of Edie's youth is so empathetic and accurate that it makes the reader relive their own childhood memories and is doubly thought-provoking. I took a trip back in time with this book as it stirred up memories of the first house I grew up in and I recalled fond images of my parents and I, and remembered those wistful days of being young and in love. But Gerrard shows how the past can sometimes return to haunt you as she effectively links this with Edie's present as she gets a chance to relive those 'what if's' from long ago.
I've read Gerrard's other books collaborating with her husband as 'Nikki French' and this is worlds apart from those, so don't buy this thinking it will be similar, you couldn't be more wrong as the genres are hugely different. But although I enjoy both genres I much preferred this novel as this was the first book I've read of hers where I actually empathised with the characters and could understand the reasons for their wrongs. I warmed to all the characters in this book, they seemed real, making mistakes but genuinly regretful as they did so.
Ultimately this is a beautifully written, bittersweet tale of love, tragedy and how the past sometimes creeps up to collide with the present. Highly recommended.