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The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert [Kindle Edition]

Rosaria Butterfield
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Rosaria, by the standards of many, was living a very good life. She had a tenured position at a large university in a field for which she cared deeply. She owned two homes with her partner, in which they provided hospitality to students and activists that were looking to make a difference in the world. There, her partner rehabilitated abandoned and abused dogs. In the community, Rosaria was involved in volunteer work. At the university, she was a respected advisor of students and her department's curriculum. And then, in her late 30s, Rosaria encountered something that turned her world upside down-the idea that Christianity, a religion that she had regarded as problematic and sometimes downright damaging, might be right about who God was, an idea that flew in the face of the people and causes that she most loved. What follows is a story of what she describes as a "train wreck" at the hand of the supernatural. These are her secret thoughts about those events, written as only a reflective English professor could.

Rosaria’s story was unknown until she was featured in a January 2013 Christianity Today article, which has been read by more than 1.7 million people. That same month she was interviewed by WORLD magazine’s Marvin Olasky, and the video went viral.

Also available in a newly Expanded Edition, ISBN 978-1884527807.

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 397 KB
  • Print Length: 128 pages
  • Publisher: Crown & Covenant Publications (6 Sept. 2012)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B0097G05F8
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  • Average Customer Review: 4.4 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (35 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #32,988 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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16 of 16 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Unusual, insightful and brilliant 20 Oct. 2012
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This is an outstanding and unusual book. It is the testimony of a reflective English professor who even though she was an active lesbian activist, became a Christian and ended up as a Reformed Presbyterian ministers wife. It is not the typical sin to salvation story - there are many ups and downs on the way. Beautifully told, with great insight and compassion, I found this book totally stimulating.
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7 of 7 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars An amazing story 8 Nov. 2012
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This book is a great and fascinating read. I found it well written and both sensitive and challenging, Rosaria's testimony certainly makes you question your world view and presuppositions without coming across as telling you what you aught to think and believe. It's a good read for anyone, but a must for those involved in ministry of any sort. I wasn't fully convinced by everything that was said (mainly on the arguments for exclusive psalmody in worship) but it was certainly informative on the subject. You may not agree with her on other bigger points but she will certainly challenge you on them.
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4 of 4 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Spiritually dynamic testimony 6 April 2013
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"I learned the first rule of repentance: that repentance requires greater intimacy with God than with our sin."

This book is full of challenging truths - it isn't only a testimony. She knows God well, not in a soppy sentimental way, but in a powerful life-changing way of someone who didn't actually want to be converted. I was bowled-over by so much that she says that speaks directly into my life.

"How did the Lord heal me? The way that he always heals: the word of God got to be bigger inside me than I." This is something for all of us if we acknowledge our need to be healed. And that's pretty much where she starts her testimony - her recognition that life doesn't add-up correctly. "In the normal course of life questions emerged that exceeded my secular feminist worldview." So she seeks out a pastor who takes the Word of God seriously and who is able to engage with her intellect, and begins to ask some questions, strictly on her terms at first. Eventually her life becomes a 'train wreck' as her old worldview is overtaken by the new, but she stays true to her friends and is appalled by some Christian attitudes "...where everybody thinks the same nobody thinks very much". The story about her transexual friend is just stunning - you can't read it without wondering about who God really is. This book doesn't let you take God for granted.

She has little time for Christians who want to hear how bad she was before she was converted. If that's your interest in this book you'll be left strongly challenged. "We in the church tend to be more fearful of the (perceived) sin in the world than of the sin in our own heart." Some of these things I read and read again. She has some great insights into sin (it is symptomatic, not causal.
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2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Danger - God really loves you! 8 Mar. 2013
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I love reading acounts of how people have met with God and come to faith and how it has changed their lives. Mrs Butterfield's testimony is beautifully written and very frank. It shows how orthodox Christians can be fruitful if they can persevere in loving people as and where they are, and let God change what needs to be changed, in His good time. It is also very challenging to those of us who have not been through a radical conversion experience.
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2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
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I loved this book all the way through. Even though I neither homeschool nor am Presbyterian nor have ever been nearly as intellectual as the author, I can greatly relate to her salvation from our modern intellectual community into a life of faith in Jesus story. I love how she uses her great intellect to articulate well our need for and the benefits of a life in relationship with Jesus.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Not so secret thoughts 15 Dec. 2013
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This was a fascinating book of a highly intelligent woman, Professor of English as a prestigious American University who decides to "come out" when she was in her late twenties. But God had other plans for her and during her research, she came across so many unexplainable facts, that she turned to a Christian minister for help. Her introduction to the church was an eye-opener and, as well as many welcoming and caring people, she also came across hostility from those who were meant to show her kindness. A sorry state of affairs. A very interesting and unusual outcome, to say the least. The book could have done with better editing as it is repetitive in places but overall a fascinating read.
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4.0 out of 5 stars God's Grace in Action 21 Aug. 2013
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Every time someone puts their trust in Jesus, it is a miracle of grace. From the child who grows up always believing in Jesus, to the person who seems furthest away from Christ, there is much rejoicing in heaven every time a sinner repents, and every conversion story is one worth hearing.

But stories like that of Rosaria Butterfield need to be told and heard widely, to remind Christians afresh of the power of the gospel to save, and this is why `The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert' is such a great book, because it does just that.

Rosaria was a radical, lesbian, feminist professor who specialised in Queer Theory (a postmodern form of gay and lesbian studies). That was until God used the loving witness of pastor Ken Smith and his wife Floy, who befriended her, and shared the gospel with her over a number of years, to bring her to repentance and faith in the Lord Jesus, and her whole life was transformed. Today she is a homeschooling, pastor's wife and mother of four adopted children who is part of a local church that sings unaccompanied psalms.

This book tells the story of how that happened.

You might not agree with everything she says (particularly about homeschooling and unaccompanied psalm singing), but you will be amazed and at times moved, as she tells the story of what God has done in her life.
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3.0 out of 5 stars It doesn't tell you the key things you want to know about the...
​It is an ok book. The premise was so interesting and the topic was something I have never read about before. Read more
Published 5 days ago by Alex L
5.0 out of 5 stars True insight into real christian change
Very honestly she starts to see her sin of pride and starts repenting of that. As she draws near to God and starts to see things from his perspective her mind is liberated to see... Read more
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4.0 out of 5 stars Four Stars
Great testimony to the power of God through Jesus Christ.
Published 1 month ago by mash
3.0 out of 5 stars Interesting story
Inclined to be a bit rambling in parts. However an interesting enough story.
Published 2 months ago by Freddie Sands
5.0 out of 5 stars full of surprises
This is a stunning book. Very clearly written. The author's journey is described in appropriate detail and we are spared any inappropriate detail. Read more
Published 3 months ago by James Glass
5.0 out of 5 stars True stories are always the best!
This is a truly amazing story. Couldn't put it down.
Published 6 months ago by Paul Samways
3.0 out of 5 stars ... then the latter part of the book becomes rather tedious as she...
Started off as really inspiring to read how someone could be converted to Christianity but then the latter part of the book becomes rather tedious as she writes about her children... Read more
Published 7 months ago by Ms J M Alexander
5.0 out of 5 stars "Car crash" of a conversion leading to an amazing and inspiring...
I first heard of this book via a youtube video interview of Rosaria, which I kept having to pause in order to write down some of the things she said. Read more
Published 13 months ago by kaper
5.0 out of 5 stars A Brilliant and insightful read, Thank you so much Rosaria!
Such a well balanced, well written and uniquely insightful read in this present day of bad, self-righteous attitudes portrayed in the media. Read more
Published 13 months ago by Mrs. L J Hadley
5.0 out of 5 stars Excellent!
It seems that each word was carefully chosen to compose this beautiful testimony that made me rethink some of my viewpoints and attitude. Read it!
Published 13 months ago by timoteo
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