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The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert

The Secret Thoughts of an Unlikely Convert [Kindle Edition]

Rosaria Butterfield
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Rosaria, by the standards of many, was living a very good life. She had a tenured position at a large university in a field for which she cared deeply. She owned two homes with her partner, in which they provided hospitality to students and activists that were looking to make a difference in the world. There, her partner rehabilitated abandoned and abused dogs. In the community, Rosaria was involved in volunteer work. At the university, she was a respected advisor of students and her department's curriculum. And then, in her late 30s, Rosaria encountered something that turned her world upside down-the idea that Christianity, a religion that she had regarded as problematic and sometimes downright damaging, might be right about who God was, an idea that flew in the face of the people and causes that she most loved. What follows is a story of what she describes as a "train wreck" at the hand of the supernatural. These are her secret thoughts about those events, written as only a reflective English professor could. Conversion put me in a complicated and comprehensive chaos. I sometimes wonder, when I hear other Christians pray for the salvation of the "lost," if they realize that this comprehensive chaos is the desired end of such prayers. Often, people asked me to describe the "lessons" that I learned from this experience. I can't. It was too traumatic. Sometimes in crisis, we don't really learn lessons. Sometimes the result is simpler and more profound: sometimes our character is simply transformed. -Rosaria Butterfield

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 397 KB
  • Print Length: 128 pages
  • Publisher: Crown & Covenant Publications (6 Sep 2012)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B0097G05F8
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Average Customer Review: 4.5 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (26 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #123,671 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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15 of 15 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Unusual, insightful and brilliant 20 Oct 2012
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This is an outstanding and unusual book. It is the testimony of a reflective English professor who even though she was an active lesbian activist, became a Christian and ended up as a Reformed Presbyterian ministers wife. It is not the typical sin to salvation story - there are many ups and downs on the way. Beautifully told, with great insight and compassion, I found this book totally stimulating.
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7 of 7 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars An amazing story 8 Nov 2012
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This book is a great and fascinating read. I found it well written and both sensitive and challenging, Rosaria's testimony certainly makes you question your world view and presuppositions without coming across as telling you what you aught to think and believe. It's a good read for anyone, but a must for those involved in ministry of any sort. I wasn't fully convinced by everything that was said (mainly on the arguments for exclusive psalmody in worship) but it was certainly informative on the subject. You may not agree with her on other bigger points but she will certainly challenge you on them.
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3.0 out of 5 stars Mixed Feelings 9 May 2013
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Without doubt it's an interesting and stimulating account of one person's journey from a radical secular, feminist position to one of redemption, healing and sincere faith in Jesus Christ. The first half is a page turner but it seems to lose its way somewhere along the line and the second half of the story is rather rambling and incoherent. There appear to be huge gaps in the story leaving the reader itching to ask how on earth she got from one intellectual and spiritual position to the next. Some of the latter chapters contain something of a polemic for home schooling, exclusive psalmody and the failings of other evangelical Christian denominations. It feels as though the book has been harshly and rather poorly edited, perhaps to remove statements or thoughts that weren't seen as 'theologically correct'. The last few chapters seem rushed and out of place. Maybe I'm wrong and perhaps 3 stars is a bit harsh. It was interesting and left me wanting to ask more questions. Certainly the riches of God's grace are very evident.
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2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Spiritually dynamic testimony 6 April 2013
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"I learned the first rule of repentance: that repentance requires greater intimacy with God than with our sin."

This book is full of challenging truths - it isn't only a testimony. She knows God well, not in a soppy sentimental way, but in a powerful life-changing way of someone who didn't actually want to be converted. I was bowled-over by so much that she says that speaks directly into my life.

"How did the Lord heal me? The way that he always heals: the word of God got to be bigger inside me than I." This is something for all of us if we acknowledge our need to be healed. And that's pretty much where she starts her testimony - her recognition that life doesn't add-up correctly. "In the normal course of life questions emerged that exceeded my secular feminist worldview." So she seeks out a pastor who takes the Word of God seriously and who is able to engage with her intellect, and begins to ask some questions, strictly on her terms at first. Eventually her life becomes a 'train wreck' as her old worldview is overtaken by the new, but she stays true to her friends and is appalled by some Christian attitudes "...where everybody thinks the same nobody thinks very much". The story about her transexual friend is just stunning - you can't read it without wondering about who God really is. This book doesn't let you take God for granted.

She has little time for Christians who want to hear how bad she was before she was converted. If that's your interest in this book you'll be left strongly challenged. "We in the church tend to be more fearful of the (perceived) sin in the world than of the sin in our own heart." Some of these things I read and read again. She has some great insights into sin (it is symptomatic, not causal.
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2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Danger - God really loves you! 8 Mar 2013
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I love reading acounts of how people have met with God and come to faith and how it has changed their lives. Mrs Butterfield's testimony is beautifully written and very frank. It shows how orthodox Christians can be fruitful if they can persevere in loving people as and where they are, and let God change what needs to be changed, in His good time. It is also very challenging to those of us who have not been through a radical conversion experience.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
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I loved this book all the way through. Even though I neither homeschool nor am Presbyterian nor have ever been nearly as intellectual as the author, I can greatly relate to her salvation from our modern intellectual community into a life of faith in Jesus story. I love how she uses her great intellect to articulate well our need for and the benefits of a life in relationship with Jesus.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
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Some parts very philosophical and hard to understand but, on the whole, very informative. Would recommend it to keen readers
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4.0 out of 5 stars Not so secret thoughts 15 Dec 2013
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This was a fascinating book of a highly intelligent woman, Professor of English as a prestigious American University who decides to "come out" when she was in her late twenties. But God had other plans for her and during her research, she came across so many unexplainable facts, that she turned to a Christian minister for help. Her introduction to the church was an eye-opener and, as well as many welcoming and caring people, she also came across hostility from those who were meant to show her kindness. A sorry state of affairs. A very interesting and unusual outcome, to say the least. The book could have done with better editing as it is repetitive in places but overall a fascinating read.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Excellent!
It seems that each word was carefully chosen to compose this beautiful testimony that made me rethink some of my viewpoints and attitude. Read it!
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This is well thought through, and from the heart. Would thoroughly recommend to any christian or non christian, especially those that are struggling with their past.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Moving, challenging and ruthlessly honest
The author's dramatic and traumatic journey to Christian faith sheds light on so many aspects of modern life - gender and equality issues, sexual orientation, education, children... Read more
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4.0 out of 5 stars An unusual read
Rosaria Butterfield's conversion is an unlikely but gripping story with much to teach Christians would want to reach out to other unlikely converts. Read more
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