This is the story of a woman's re-awakening of self. It is the story of forty-two year old Jessie Sullivan, a woman who has sublimated herself throughout her married life to her husband and her daughter. Now that her daughter is going away to college, empty nest syndrome looms on the horizon, along with a somewhat stagnant marriage. When she returns to her childhood home to attend to her aging mother who has done something unthinkable, it is Jessie who then does the unthinkable.
On the island where she grew up, Egret Island, her deeply religious mother remains uncommunicative about having intentionally severed one of her fingers. Her mother, a cook for the Benedictine monastery on the Island, will simply not discuss the reasons why she engaged in such a violent act of self-mutilation, and Jessie suspects that it has something to do with the death of Jessie's beloved father who died when she was nine. Jessie had always felt tremendous guilt and sadness regarding her father's death, as he purportedly died while on his fishing boat, which exploded when a spark from a pipe Jessie had given him as a gift had ignited a faulty gas line.
While back on Egret Island, Jessie, pondering her mother's situation as well as her own growing discontent and dissatisfaction with her life, runs into Brother Thomas, a Benedictine monk battling his own internal demons and personal crisis. When these two lost souls come together, an illicit affair is begun, and Jessie embarks on such a surprising voyage of personal self-discovery that even she does not know how it will all end. When her husband, Hugh, a psychiatrist and no dummy, comes to the island, he pretty much figures out what is going on. He returns home, only to realize the reality of what actually has happened. He knows that he needs to look beyond himself and try to find a way to overcome his own feelings of personal devastation and betrayal in order to help right what went wrong. While Jessie's way of reaching into the core of her being was not necessarily right, it is the way that presented itself to her. Had it not, I doubt that she would have been able to put her life in order and appreciate what she had with her husband and to build on that. Jessie ultimately realizes that her love affair is the response to a crisis in her life but is not necessarily the solution.
This book spoke to me. Its theme resonated on a very personal level. So many women do sublimate themselves to their families that when their children grow up and leave home, they are an empty shell of their former self, their raison d'etre no longer there. They are left to rediscover themselves. Some do, while others, unfortunately do not, sleepwalking through their lives, shadowy remnants of their younger selves, never venturing out beyond their own self-imposed restraints, out of touch with themselves as people in their own right. The author addresses these issues through this lyrically told story. The essence of her haunting prose will stay with the reader long after the last page is turned.