Here is a book-' The Matter with Us', by John Rawles, which will de-clutter your mind and knit together the different threads of your thinking and reading, filling in gaps on the way.
The layout is interesting. Clear,short chapters are interspersed with blocks of well explained science, followed by a page or so of notes on source material where readers of all backgrounds will find some familiar ground but also new names to follow up. This is particularly useful for non-scientists, covering as it does,the whole story from Big Bang to our present dilemma by way of evolution, consciousness, philosophy, political development and what it means to be human, to what comes next.
What sets John Rawles apart in this field is that, unlike writers of a purely academic background, he was a heart consultant doing valuable research into clot-busters, so when he talks about man as an organism, or about medical ethics, he does so with authority. He has a diagnostic approach to all problems, including the use of metaphoric language and its limitations,often not acknowledged in the effort to be lucid.
The book has a message. I first encountered it in Sixth Form Latin, in Lucretius's 'De Rerum Natura', though in Ancient Rome all this had to be guesswork. I have a feeling Lucretius would have devoured this book with relish. I did.