One of the worst things about depression is being inside your own head, asking yourself questions about why you can't cope when everyone else can. It is the loneliest place in the world.
I had to stop reading this book after the first chapter. It was watching my own life and actions played out by someone else, and I recognised it - even things I had never considered before, all of my past was mirrored. I pressed on with the book, and found someone else thinking the same thoughts as me, asking the same questions that I was asking of myself, frustrated that I couldn't find answers and blaming myself because nobody else would think this way.
This book will not cure depression. This book will not teach you the methods to deal with it and overcome it. That's not what this book is for. This book is about hope, something Stephanie touches on often. Depression is the total absence of all hope, an insidious feeling and a dangerous place to be.
This book gave me hope. I'm not alone. It's not "just me". There are ways through all of this.
The book is honest, and written with humour and beauty. I recommend it for anyone suffering from depression, as a small measure of hope that you are not alone through all of this, that you aren't stupid or weak. I also recommend it to anyone who has a loved one suffering with depression, as a better insight into what they are enduring than perhaps they themselves can give.
Everyone's depression is unique to them, but Stephanie Merritt can speak for all of us of the pain, the frustration, the despair that it causes.
This book didn't save my life, but it may have helped me to regain my life.