If you've ever wondered why young people take drugs, then this may well be the book you've been looking for.
Astute, honest and acutely observed, Gordon transports the reader into the mind of a teenager in the 'rave' scene of the 90s and explores those pressures that drove her to take ecstasy to 'feel' something, to fill some agonising, inexplicable gap in her life.
Her subsequent disastrous reaction to MDMA ten tabs down the road marked an extraordinary turning point in her life. Somehow, partly through her own introspection, she pulled herself out of a serious depression and returned with the message that happiness cannot be created artificially - that there's far more to our emotional state than a change of brain chemistry. An excellent debut.