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SFX, July 2001
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Excerpted from Talisker by Miller Lau. Copyright © 2001. Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved
Gulls' calls are the first noise to break the morning quiet; their harsh cries echo like a scream in the face of the new day. Sounds trickle in like a salt wave encroaching around the buildings, as though they are simply larger pebbles and the city, a natural extension of the shore. Perhaps it is. The city is very old. The light which steals slowly across its craggy face will not illuminate its secrets. As ever, in this time between the darkness and the light, the city has an air of waiting. A silence which hangs above it, above the wave of sound. Silence and waiting.
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He was a free man.
As he walked toward the red wooden gates the idea appalled him. If it was what he really wanted, why did the impulse to run back seem so real, so immediate? What lay beyond the red finality that had the power to frighten grown men as though they were simple children? He'd always wondered. He'd watched his contemporaries walk this same walk, some laughing, some tearful and some seemingly indifferent. And yet, when they reached the black shadow of the portal, as he had now, they all did it. They paused. They stopped and stared ahead for long moments. Those who would be watching would shout encouragement as though the man would turn back otherwise. Talisker had always wondered what they felt, what the look on their faces was at this moment. Some would turn back toward the grey brick walls and wave, others simply squared their shoulders as though bracing themselves; but they all paused.
And now he knew. The look on their faces was fear, because when those gates opened, a different world lay beyond. A world of changes. Nothing could be the same as when they left, people, places, shops, nothing. The fear was sudden and unexpected, and the realization that this moment, only this moment, was the real execution of their punishment, was overwhelming. It was time they had lost, simply time. The days, hours, minutes and seconds of their lives. Talisker had lost fifteen years.
In fact, the great red gates did not swing open. He was prepared for this but he still felt cheated as the smaller door which was inset lower down was unlocked by a warder. Even these last few moments they stole were not allowed to be remarkable. As the small door swung backward, a square of light appeared, a square of reality. Talisker knew it was no lighter on the other side of the door than it was in the yard where he stood, yet the light seemed blinding as new, unused, unbreathed minutes and seconds spilled across the threshold. He stared at the bright rectangle until the warder coughed sarcastically.
'ur you goan then? Or dae I have tae push ye out?'