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TORN [Kindle Edition]

Gilli Allan
4.4 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (24 customer reviews)

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Product Description

Gilli Allan writes unconventional romantic fiction for grown-ups.

Life is not a fairy tale; it can be confusing and difficult. Sex is not always awesome; it can be awkward and embarrassing, and it has consequences. You don't always fall for Mr Right, even if he falls for you. And realising you're in love is not always good news. It can make the future look daunting.
Jess has made a series of bad choices. Job, relationships and life-style have all let her down. By escaping the turmoil of her London life, she is putting her young child first. This time she wants to get it right, to devote herself to being a mother. But the country does not offer the ‘good life ’idyll she pictured. The landscape she looks out on is under threat, new friends have hidden agendas, two very different men pull her in opposing directions.

And in the face of temptation old habits die hard. She is torn between the suitable man and the unsuitable boy.

About the Author

Gilli Allan began writing novels in childhood - a hobby pursued throughout her teenage. Though she never finished anything, writing was only abandoned totally when she left home and real life took over from the fiction. Gilli did not go to Oxford or Cambridge, but instead went to Croydon Art College. She did not work on any of the broadsheets or in television, but did a variety of jobs - shop assistant, beauty-consultant, barmaid, as well as a job which involved picking up American tourists in London in order to sell them real estate in Florida. Gilli worked longest and most happily as a commercial artist - specifically as an illustrator in advertising. When Gilli stopped work to have her son she started writing again. Her first two completed novels - Just Before Dawn and Desires & Dreams - were immediately taken on by a publisher. Gilli writes honestly about modern relationships. In TORN she does not shy away from the messiness of life, or underplay the difficulties to be faced by single parents who seek to rebuild their lives.

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 716 KB
  • Print Length: 465 pages
  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 1477517014
  • Publisher: Gilli Allan (1 April 2011)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S. r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B004UVR81Y
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Average Customer Review: 4.4 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (24 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #139,006 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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I suspect I've always been a writer. Long before I was capable of committing more than a few laborious sentences to the page I routinely developed long and complex stories in my head, peopled typically with fairies, princes and princesses and the sons and daughters of red-Indian chieftains. And at primary school, instead of the usual playground games, I forced my friends to enact these dramas.
Only a few pages long, my first attempt at actually writing a novel was set on a manned lighthouse 'in the olden days'. A visiting party of ladies was trapped there by bad weather. Following the young hero's fall on the rocks outside, which confined him to a couch being nursed by my young heroine, my imagination and energy failed.
I began this flight of fancy when I was ten, inspired by my fifteen year old sister. Her own ambition was to write a Regency romance, but it was the only book she has ever (so far) written, but at least she finished it. I never finished anything, but I'm nothing if not persistent and, once I'd caught the writing bug, I carried on throughout my teenage years making many beginnings to various, and increasingly morbid stories. Doubtless I was compensating, through my romantic fantasies, for my lack of a real love life.
The 'love on a lighthouse' story was a one-off. Though I loved to read those Regency romances that had inspired my sister, my own writing swiftly settled into a more contemporary style, and dwelt in a darker, seedier world than the one Jane Austen or Georgette Heyer inhabited. It was a world I had no experience of and I had to rely entirely upon imagination.
My parents were both artists. They never discouraged my writing, but it was ignored. Their interest in my notebooks was not engaged by my literary pubescent outpourings, but by the doodles and illustrations which lavishly embellished them. It was clear where they thought my talents lay. In my early adult life I stopped writing - writers were clever, educated people. I was neither. I'd left school at 16 with just enough exam passes to go on to Art College. I now realise that, although I am on the mild end of the spectrum, I was then and am now almost certainly dyslexic.
My career was in advertising where I worked as an illustrator. When I stopped work to have my son, I started writing again. Given my subsequent experience, I now find it amazing that the first two novels I ever finished were immediately taken on by a new independent publisher. The first, Just Before Dawn, though unconventional, followed most of the of the tropes of the category romance. But with the second, Desires & Dreams, I let my hair down and wrote the novel of my heart. It was still a love story, but it revisited the darker world of my teenage imagination and was a novel which subverted the 'romance' stereotypes. I was able to design my own covers.
My publisher failed to achieve the marketing, promotion and distribution necessary to achieve success for itself or for its new authors. It folded after a few years and since those days the world of publishing has changed completely. This is why, in a time when publishers and agents are increasingly risk averse, I decided to self-publish my novels TORN, LIFE CLASS and FLY or FALL.
Even now, many books later, I cannot follow any kind of formula in my writing. Love may still be the engine of the plot, not that my characters are necessarily aware of this, but I try to write honestly, refusing to romanticise the downsides and the pitfalls in modern relationships.

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8 of 9 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Torn, ripped and shredded. 24 May 2012
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At last, a romance with some meat on its bones, and a set of teeth.
It's a love story for grown-ups and it's slightly unconventional themes and considerations bring it right into the here and now.
This story of divided love and commitment with its gorgeous rural setting, was right up my street/field!
Jessica the ex-city trader has escaped a violent relationship and takes her small son to a country village, hoping to find some peace and stability. She meets two men; both at opposite ends of the social scale as well as in every other way. As she becomes involved in the lives of Daniel and James, she questions everything she stands for, hopes for and believes in. Rich in character and visual enjoyment, it is very much a feast of contemporary county life with a good dose of reality.
Gilli Allan does not hold back in the sex department either; she delivers the goods with the same clarity and understanding as the rest of the narrative, but then it just wouldn't work any other way. She writes with honesty and insight.
The plot was clever, with all it's emotional twists and turns, and the conclusion was just perfect, albeit a little bitter sweet...and yet all perfectly plausible.
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5.0 out of 5 stars The title says it all. More than just a romance 26 Oct 2012
By Nicola_1202 TOP 500 REVIEWER
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Thoroughly enjoyed this. It's a well written book with a gutsy storyline that keeps you guessing all the way through, makes you constantly change your opinions of the characters along the way and the rural setting sets the scene beautifully. The issues that the author covers are dealt with in a pretty true-to-life manner, with sensitivity where needed and it invoked a myriad of feelings whilst I read.

Jess is a great character; she is strong yet weak, kind yet a little selfish. Some of the comments her 3 year old son comes out with bring lovely light moments where I laughed out loud. I found Dan easy to love and felt quite protective over him, and whilst it took me a good while to warm to James (he suffers from foot-in-mouth), I eventually did. I was literally torn over who Jess should choose. Can definitely recommend adding this your reading collection.
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4.0 out of 5 stars A gritty romance 22 Oct 2013
By Beeshon
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I'm often teased for my dogged determination to finish every book I start, regardless of its quality. Had I been the sort of person to discard a book at the early stages because it wasn't grabbing me, this might have been one such book. At the beginning, I couldn't engage with the main character, Jess--a fast-living, good-time girl with a young son of indeterminate paternity. I'm so glad I have a `read-it-at-all costs' policy! This turned out to be a romance with attitude and gumption, and I found myself page-turning frantically.

With a three-year-old young son, father unknown--the product of alcohol- and drug-fuelled free living, Jess finds herself fleeing her abusive boyfriend, taking refuge in rural England. Her old habits die hard and she finds herself boomeranging between a young `eco-warrier' and a `gentleman' farmer. Two men, completely different, both with their own `baggage' and crosses to bear. She loves both. She knows one is unsuitable and the other perfect husband material. She is torn.

Allan brings the three main characters to life vividly. Actually, she brings all her characters to life. They are superbly drawn, and I had a clear picture of all of them. Allan didn't make me work hard to imagine them. Her research, too, was in-depth and meticulous. There are many references to and scenes involving farming practices. Far from blinding me with science, they were described in just enough detail to set the stage, but fascinating at the same time.

I didn't like Jess at first, but she grew on me, despite her questionable morals. She knows her own mind, is strong, focussed, and determined. Her choices aren't obvious. And that's what I liked about this romance: there was no predictability about it.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Out of the ordinary 25 Mar 2013
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Gilli Allan's Torn is by no means a regular romance and this lifted it above many others for me. Jessica is edgy, intelligent, guilt-ridden and confused, as many single mothers are, and she takes us through her dilemma's showing her true self and keeping nothing back. With two possible endings this novel kept me guessing right to the last page, and left me thinking about it long after I'd finished it.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Down-to-earth 18 Mar 2013
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What springs to mind when I start to review this book is how down to earth and ordinary it is and I don't mean that in a derogatory sense - it was refreshing to read about the lives of normal people and not super rich millionaires. I found myself very absorbed in the whole plot and still find myself thinking about the characters and all the scenarios days later...
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4.0 out of 5 stars Touching 3 Mar 2013
By Groovee
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A touching sensitively written story while dealing with sensitive issues and ways people can find themselves in. Definitely worth a read.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Torn by Gilli Allan 21 Jan 2013
By Alexx
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Gilli Allan writes very well. I like her style of prose very much. It is crisp, efficient and with precise incisive choices of words, even in the bedroom. She has a wide vocabulary which she uses to great effect without getting pedantic or over literary. This is intelligent contemporary romance at its best. The settings and characters were effortlessly drawn and Ms Allan really understands both the frustrations and charm of young children. No character was without interest or complexity. I knocked off a star, not because of the quality of the writing but I would have liked a little more plot, a little less introspection. The back ground story about the by-pass and the thread about dyslexia were really interesting and I would have liked more about them. That's just me, though and for romance fiction fans - this is an absolute winner. Recommended for romance lovers everywhere for an up to the minute, intimate read.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Gritty Modern Relationship Fiction
'Torn' is a story about the complexities of modern relationships. Gill Allan writes with great power about characters who are flawed yet sympathetic. Read more
Published 7 months ago by Lindsay Townsend
4.0 out of 5 stars More than a romance
I picked this up while it was on a free promotion. I don't read many romance novels and since that is what I was expecting it to be I left it unread on my kindle for too long. Read more
Published 12 months ago by Amazon Customer
3.0 out of 5 stars Torn
I found this book very slow to get going but carried on to the end. couldn't say I enjoyed it, I couldn't wait for the last page to finish!
Published 16 months ago by janette
5.0 out of 5 stars Vivid characters, compelling plot...
Sometimes you read a book and the characters stay with you no matter how many books you read in its wake. Torn is such a book. Read more
Published 17 months ago by Jane KM
2.0 out of 5 stars Depressingly bad
Someone who gave this 5 stars mentioned the 'brutal language' at the beginning as setting the tone for the rest of the book, and I agree, it certainly does, but not in a good way. Read more
Published 18 months ago by Charlotte M.
5.0 out of 5 stars Compelling Romance, Finely Written Story
TORN pulled me into the story of Jess from the very first paragraph. The book is a wonderful piece of prose from a gifted author with a unique voice. Read more
Published 18 months ago by Saved
5.0 out of 5 stars Torn - A breath of fresh air!
When I first started reading this book the central character had been tracked down by her ex-partner and was being publicly abused in the street. Read more
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