This was the first book by Mark Roeder I picked up. I was happy to discover that he managed to capture the internal dialogue in which every gay youngster indulges when first realizing what must be different about him. After reading "Billy's Boy," I didn't think another writer could do as well at bringing the interior world of a gay youth to life. It is all here: the fears, the doubts, the hopes and the dreams. It was amazing to discover a coming of age book without cynicism. In dealing with a real possibility for gay youth from a perspective of affirmation, the author made the relationship that developed between the two main characters, Ethan and Nathan, one of hope. For some, the relationship may seem a fantasy. For me, it made me envy what so many didn't have while growing up.