Elizabeth Jane Howard is one of my favourite writers and here she gives us, honestly and without dissimulation, the story of her life so far. In her eighties now, she has a lot of life to go over. Her childhood was fraught, her mother cold and quite unashamedly biased towards her sons rather than her awkward but highly intelligent daughter. Her father was a sybarite, loving and charming, but in her adolescence Jane was prey to his inappropriate gropings which understandably soured their relationship. She married Peter Scott, naturalist and navy man, but this was not a particularly successful marriage. Nevertheless they had a daughter; although EJH seemed destined to repeat her own mother's mistakes by palming her off on a nanny.
The matter of class comes to the fore in considering much of EJH's life. Upper-middle and arty, her milieu was one of easy relationships and friendships. She had affairs with Cecil Day Lewis, Arthur Koestler and Laurie Lee, but only the last of these seems to have been sexually rewarding. All this occurred while she was struggling to write her first couple of novels, which were rather indifferently received by the reading public. Her struggles with houses and gardens and money are documented entertainingly, but slightly tainted with her other-worldly social attitudes. She is never without domestic help throughout and unless she has left a great deal out of this account it appears that the natural elements of life, such as one's children, can only be handled at arms length.
Her marriage to Kingsley Amis (her third marriage) is reported without self-justification. EJH takes the blame for much of what happened, though it is clear to the reader that Amis was a drunken misogynist, much happier with his right-wing chums than his hapless family and it is a relief for all when she gives up her martyrdom and leaves him.
The writing throughout this not entirely comfortable tale is faultless and open, with very little vanity or self-consciousness displayed. EJH is a skilful, intelligent and un-showy writer and her story is deeply interesting to those who value insight into the artistic and literary life in England during the last half of the last century.