I was floored by the discovery of my husband's infidelity with my 'friend and neighbour' yes! she really did live right next door. I was horrified to find myself a nearly fifty something woman, single again after eighteen years of marriage, during which I had been a faithful, dutiful and loyal wife - for the second time I didnt know which way to turn. This is a brutally honest, hilarious and sometimes poignant account of my last three years as a single older woman and how I found solace in the arms of younger men. Trying to juggle my personal, family and working life is like a military operation and being revved up on HRT and having found my libido hiding under the bed, I struggle to find time to satisfy my desires. I decide to keep a diary of each and every encounter to help me cope. As Internet dating becomes part of my everyday life I discover that keeping control of my emotions and my sex drive is harder than I thought.