At what cost do we have delusion and mental illness? The personal cost is exorbitant.
The main character Alex, is haunted deeply by his past. By his choices. By the pressure he put on his wife. In a heart wrenching tale, his brilliant mind is lost in gossamer spaces between realities, and his heart is breaking as he watches the love of his life slipping away. Slipping away in front of his eyes, going so far as to boldly play footsie under the table at a couples dinner for 4.
Alex is stuck in paranoia. His therapist isn't helping, and every sense he has is warning him they're plotting together, to lock him up and throw away the key.
Oh sure, every therapist says "they're just trying to help", but Alex isn't hedging his bets, he rethinks every answer during their sessions, constantly on the lookout for the trick question to seal his fate.
But then his reality starts to dissolve, he has the most lucid visions, taking him on a quantum trip, the trip where anything is possible, and he's living his deepest dream, he's in space. He's understanding everything the masters hypothesized.
The twist in this book is so unexpected. You think you're reading an impossible tale which borders on delusional fantasy, when the author deftly snaps the rug from underneath you.
This book will make you angry, it will make you sad, it will make you ponder on the fragility of sanity, and then when the truth is exposed, you will cry for the main character.
Standing on the shores of the cosmic oceans, the only thing you will find, isn't water on a beach, it's memories left in the sand, it's a horizon belonging to the past, the past you buried so deep, because if you faced it, life would just be too hard.
This is a brilliant novel! It's intelligent and deep, and so poignant, it's breathtaking!
5 out of 5 stars - no hesitation!