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I'm Not Really Here

I'm Not Really Here [Kindle Edition]

Paul Lake
4.8 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (95 customer reviews)

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"His tale is one of incredible neglect, which makes for fascinating reading on a sporting, but mostly human level." (The Sports Diaries)

"Paul Lake could have been a world superstar but will forever be a legend at the club he loves" (Steve McManaman)

"Paul Lake was the most gifted in the group of young players who brightened Manchester City up for fans in the 1980s who were pining for the glory days to return...his is an inspirational human story" (David Conn The Guardian)

"I'd be frightened to put a price on his head these days ... Paul was as good a young player as I've ever worked with." (Howard Kendall)

"Without question, he is the best young player I have ever worked with" (Mel Machin)

Book Description

The extraordinary memoir of Paul Lake, the greatest English footballer to never make the national team.

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 1484 KB
  • Print Length: 418 pages
  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 0099553252
  • Publisher: Cornerstone Digital (4 Aug 2011)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B005FRCE0C
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Average Customer Review: 4.8 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (95 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #20,145 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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51 of 51 people found the following review helpful
Although Paul Lake's City career effectively ended at the age of 22, he is still revered as a City legend. Why?

Firstly, during his short career at City (truncated by a horrific knee inury) he had already proven to be a star. Captain at 21, often MOTM...he simply didn't do bad performances. He could play almost anywhere - and had all the attributes necessary to make it at the top level. England captain of the future? You can never say for sure, but the consensus was almost unanimous.
Secondly, he was a blue through and through - a fan wearing the shirt. You could see how much he wanted to play, and as fans we saw ourself in him.
Thirdly, he was something to cling onto when things started to turn sour in the early 90s. "It'll be ok when we get Lakey back", was something I heard often at Maine Road.

This book is a frank and thorough depiction of the nature of depression when something you love is taken from you. It's something most people can relate to, athlete or mere mortal. The fact that Lake is so up front about a subject that is still almost taboo can only be a good thing for mental health awareness too.
I really enjoyed the book: it was well written and produced both smiles and tears. It's a refreshing work, not the same old same old football biog.

Thanks for the memories Paul, and I wish you all the best for the future.
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31 of 31 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars I wish all autobiographies were like this 12 Aug 2011
By Shempz
I'm not a Man City fan, and can't profess to knowing a huge amout about Paul Lake, in spite of being a big football fan all my life. This book however, is possibly the best autobiography I've ever read. It traces Paul's life from childhood to the success of being made Man City captain and part of the England World Cup Squad in 1990 to the lows of severe depression following long term injury and many botched operations.

It'll make you laugh, and cry (or at least get a lump in your throat!) in equal measures, and every page you read will just make you want to get to the next even faster.
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9 of 9 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Simply a great book. 21 Aug 2011
I'm a United fan, and a good blue mate bought me this.
I owe him big time.

Red, blue or whatever team you support, you probably know about Paul Lake already "he did his cruciate didn't he?", but you might not know about the man who in his depths of despair admits to defacing and tearing to pieces a City programme, dissolves into tears after a chance meeting with a fan in a curry house and loses his father, is forced to retire from football and gets divorced within the space of months.

Lake's honesty about his struggles with his physical and mental health is brutal. Yet the writing style and the structure flows smoothly from first page to last.

The tragedy is that a talented young man with a treatable injury was let down by the Medical profession and sadly by his club - read the bit about his toe-to-toe with Peter Swales.

And still the physical pain goes on. Paul Lake will most likely be the youngest ex-pro to need a double-knee transplant, so buy this book right now and give him some support. Trust me, if you love football, you won't regret forking out for it, it's worth every penny. Hey, I can't believe I just wrote that about a City player, but it's true!
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21 of 22 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars I'm not really here 12 Aug 2011
Growing up as a city fans from Denton, Paul lake was our inspiration and local hero. Everyone I knew was so upset when Lakey had to retire due to injury at such a young age. I was 16 then and now I am a thirty something and thought I would buy the book to see just what did happen to my hero.
What a read !!!! The first 2 chapters set the tone for an emotional read. It progresses to give you an true account of how badly certain people at the club treated their brightest star. The physical pain of an injury that was never going to get better due to being badly diagnoised by people a young Paul Lake trusted. The years of physical and emotional pain clearly come through the words on each page,but there are also some light hearted funny moments that make you laugh out loud. The Final chapter sees Paul "returning Home" back to City in his new role as club ambassador, Well done the club for not forgetting the best young homegrown footballer ever to play for City. Writing this book must of taken a lot of courage and soul searching but you get the sense that writing this book has probalbly helped Paul in his recovery. A must read for any football fan especially fans who like to read books written by players who are still in touch with reality. Well done Paul and Good Luck... (your still my hero :)
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7 of 7 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars emotional rollercoaster! 8 Aug 2011
Format:Kindle Edition
an honest and frank account of pauls fight to save his career,at times the book left me with a big lump in my throat,and as a city fan,a sour taste about the way my club treated him in the past,am glad to read they are now making amends,a fantastic read for all football fans and a definate inspiration to anybody fighting a long term injury.
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6 of 6 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Excellent Footy Biography 9 Feb 2012
Format:Hardcover|Verified Purchase
I was lent this autobiography of Paul Lake off a blue mate who claimed that although was a Red i would enjoy the book. I have to say this by far one of the better football biography's i have read in a while. Paul is a similar age to me so i can relate to a lot of the stories he has of growing up in around 70-80's Manchester. I did remember him from the period but had forgotten how much potential he had and had shown and he would surely have gone on to become a much greater known player and England regular if a knee injury had not brought his career prematurely to an end. He comes across as a totally genuine nice lad and far more down to earth than the prima Donna's of today. A great read for any football fan.
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Most Recent Customer Reviews
4.0 out of 5 stars Four Stars
good read a bit sad feel for the guy and i am a manu fan
Published 7 days ago by mr esmond a scott
5.0 out of 5 stars Five Stars
good book
Published 1 month ago by crazylady
5.0 out of 5 stars Life's hard then you cry
fabulous read from start to finish.but I have quiet a few things in common with our Paul. There is a a strong sense of both sadness and nostalgia running through this book but many... Read more
Published 2 months ago by David Colin Morris
5.0 out of 5 stars im not really here
good reading so my brother tells me i always buy him a book to put with his xmas gifts ,and it has never failed to please him
Published 2 months ago by Mrs. C. Walker
5.0 out of 5 stars Great read, some good football stories in parallel with ...
Great read, some good football stories in parallel with personal adversity. Definitely up there with the best of football autobiographies. Great stuff.
Published 3 months ago by Bob
5.0 out of 5 stars Lakeys Honest Story.
One for those with fond memories of Lakey.

A really good book, very frank and to the point, about one of City's greatest players, cut down early in his prime. Read more
Published 6 months ago by K. McGowan
5.0 out of 5 stars The best autobiography I've ever read
I purchased this book as a City fan who was familiar with Lakey from the Bluetuesday podcast. As an American who's only been a fan of the club for 5 years I'm always looking for... Read more
Published 6 months ago by Russell Ward
4.0 out of 5 stars Paul Lake
Good read and as I lived just down the road from Paul a lot of familiar references, people I know etc. Would it have been so good otherwise? ..... not sure
Published 9 months ago by Steven Partington
5.0 out of 5 stars Best football book ever
This is an incredible story of a player that was destined to be England captain whose career was tragically cut short. All football supporters will enjoy reading this book.
Published 10 months ago by Jon London
5.0 out of 5 stars Paul Lake book review
Bought this for my husband for Christmas and he loved it and would agree its a fabulous read for all football fans
Published 11 months ago by Douglas , Chester
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