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My Alien Self: My Journey Back to Me (Memoirs of Amanda Green Book 1) [Kindle Edition]

Amanda Green , Debz Hobbs-Wyatt
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One of many 5* reviews... "What an interesting, fun and well written life story this is - I was engaged right from the start and couldn't put it down. Amanda's certainly packed a lot of exciting adventures into her life! I would thoroughly recommend this book not just to those suffering with mental health issues, but to those who would also like a jolly good read!"

If I told you I’d been to twenty-four Countries (twenty-one by the time I was twenty-two), that I’d worked in Japan for nine months, toured Australia for six months, enjoyed seven months in Thailand and met and campaigned for the Orangutan in Borneo, you might think that I was pretty lucky.
If I told you I’d worked in the hotel industry, for a sexual health department in a hospital and with prisoners in a drug cell block of a male prison, that I’d worked as a recruitment consultant, in so many office jobs I’ve lost count, as well as having my own company and multiple websites, at age thirty-six, then you might think I’ve had an interesting life.
But if I added to that a mix of child rape, mental health problems, promiscuity, drug taking, alcohol abuse, eating disorders, self-harm, violence, mood swings, obsession, jealousy, loss of self worth, being raised by a mentally ill mother, bankruptcy, thyroid and gastro problems and public masturbation in school at age nine, then I am not sure what you’d think.
But this is me; Amanda Green. This is my life, my story; my journey back to me from depression, anxiety, panic attacks, OCD and Borderline Personality Disorder – mental illness which manifested during my life and came out ‘to it’s peak’ in my thirties.
I was able to use my collection of mementos, photos, diaries, journals, letters, emails and text messages of my past to finally see who I had become, and more importantly with a combination of therapy, medication and my writing, how I became that alien self and how I found the real me.

The editor (Debz Hobbs-Wyatt) adds…
This is the journey of a normal working class girl, trapped in a roller coaster world of disorder and excitement, love and joy, depression and anger – and her fight against stigma
While My Alien Self would be inspiring for any sufferer, their families or medical teams in its honest insights into living with a mental illness, it also has universal appeal. For who, at times, has not felt their life spin into chaos and wondered what is normal? This story effectively and openly highlights just how fine the line is between what is normal, and what is ‘mental illness’ And everyone who reads it will be able to relate to it.

Contains explicit language and sexual scenes

Emergence had this to say '‘We very much enjoyed reading this honest and powerful account of Amanda’s journey from diagnosis to recovery. We applaud such authentic and candid accounts of the devastation that can be experienced by those living with personality disorder and of the message of hope and recovery that the book conveys.’

Bon Dobbs (Anything To Stop The Pain and Author of 'When hope is not enough') said 'While there are many borderline personality disorder memoirs out now (including The Buddha and the Borderline, Loud House of Myself,Get Me Out of Here, Girl in Need of a Tourniquet and Poisoned Love – see this link), My Alien Self goes a long way to providing hope to the sufferers of BPD. By publishing the steps taken to reframe certain ways thinking, through CBT worksheets and other exercises, the author has revealed that recovery from BPD is possible.'

I self published this book and am very proud of that fact, because I was able to write it exactly as I wanted it to be written, with the help from my fabulous editor, Debz Hobbs-Wyatt. Whilst the massive help a publisher and agent gives, they do narrow down what is published, so I took on the journey to publish it and market it myself.

There’s a sequel out too, called '39'. It's quite different, but it leads on from this one :-)

About the Author

I am Amanda Green, author of 'My Alien Self - My Journey Back To Me' and the sequel '39'. 'My Alien Self - My Journey Back To Me' is my memoir which follows my journey through travel, excitement, normality and mental illness to find myself again. '39' is about what happened afterwards; the year before reaching the prime age of forty, family relationships, love and memories. I want to inspire others that it is possible to recover and have a life worth living. Because I grew up with my mother having severe Schizophrenia, who had been incarcerated in psychiatric hospitals for years, and felt the bullying and loneliness that stigma can spread, I campaign to 'stop the stigma surrounding mental illness. I also felt the wrath of stigma when I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality disorder. Many people do not understand mental illness, so judge people unfairly. So I created www.amandagreenauthor.co.uk where I publish articles on the topics covered in my story, including self help, depression, bankruptcy, Alcohol/drug abuse, family and relationships, sexual, physical and mental abuse, anxiety, anger, Cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT), self harm, Obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), Anorexia Nervosa/Bulimia, mindfulness, panic, rape, Schizophrenia, pychosis, Suicidal thoughts, , paranoia, dissociation, mood disorder, thyroid issues and psychology. I will be working with mental health charities, magazines, newspapers, social networking and other PR projects, actively making people aware of this disorder through every means possible through the media. But also, I hope that my books will help other sufferers and their families and friends to understand BPD and mental health and how to help oneself to feel better. I want to raise awareness to the general public about mental illness and the stigma sufferers have to deal with. I hope that Doctors and the medical industry involved with mental health will benefit from reading my stories, as they unfold what it is like to suffer from debilitating mental illness from the inside out and how it manifests itself. But I have also written my memoirs in a style that I hope will be compelling and sometimes shocking reads for anyone interested in memoirs with a twist, so that I can reach more people. Outside of work, I love eating out and reviewing restaurants, travel, days out, campaigning for the precious Orang-utan and the issues of unsustainable palm oil production, running six websites of my own and seeing my family.

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 568 KB
  • Print Length: 486 pages
  • Publisher: Amanda Green; 1 edition (29 May 2012)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B0087HBUWU
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Average Customer Review: 4.7 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (31 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #216,087 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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More About the Author

I am Amanda Green, self published author of six inspiring books.

Aside from writing and social networking, I spend a lot of time with my pets; a handsome cat called Titus, a pretty hamster called Molly and tropical fish. I strongly believe in pet animal therapy as being good for our mind, body and soul and I promote the fostering and adopting of animals as opposed to private breeding and purchase. I detest animal cruelty.

I love eating out and reviewing restaurants, travel, days out, campaigning for the precious Orang-utan and the issues of unsustainable palm oil production and seeing my family. I also enjoy reading, theatre, films, TV and cooking.

I have travelled on/off across the world, taking in twenty five Countries - living and working at times in Japan, Thailand and Australia and have enjoyed a very mixed bag of jobs.

I run six personal websites for which I write all copy and articles and provide all photography.

I have had my writing and photography work published in various magazines and local newspapers. I enjoy the challenge of getting published.

'My Alien Self: My Journey Back to Me' is my self published memoir of my journey through mental illness to recovery. I want to inspire others that it is possible to recover and have a life worth living. Many people do not understand mental illness and judge people unfairly, so I created www.amandagreenauthor.co.uk where I publish articles on the topics covered in my story and campaign to 'stop the stigma surrounding mental illness'.

My aspirations are to be successful in fact/fiction storytelling in the mental health/relationship genres. I have unique ideas and have enjoyed various writer's retreats and short writing courses to further my writing.

I have just finished Counselling skills level 2 at college and am waiting to hear if I will be accepted on the level 4 course. I would love to be able to help others facing issues and adversities - fingers crossed! :-)


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9 of 9 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Desperate inspiration 21 Aug 2012
Format:Kindle Edition
I'd heard about this book some time ago, and being a carer for a wife with severe mental illness, suffering mild mental disturbance myself and an avid campaigner to end stigma and improve mental health services, I knew I would read it... but when...
So,today I have now had time to settle down... I found it compulsive, disturbing and ultimately inspiring.I had no real exposure to mental illness when young, although we did have a distant relative resident in an "asylum" to use the word of that time.
It was only after my wife suffered post natal depression, then became ill with acute psychotic depression (now become dementia)in 2004 that I started to understand.
Reading this memoir, there were so many points where I thought I know exactly how that looks, or feels, and at times felt she could be writing about my life And that was one of the great enlightenments, because thinking of it, I know so many people who would say the same. These issues are unique to the individual, but there are many more out there with similar problems, who don't have the eloquence, courage or motivation to write such a thought-provoking, honest, heart breaking inspiring book, chronicling all the pain and emotion that mental illness can load onto a person, a family, it is just not understood by anyone who has not been through it. It is so wonderful that someone like Amanda, who has lived it, suffered it, can have the courage and nobility to write it so eloquently... this should be read by everyone out there who has any compassion for their fellow man... it will open a whole range of new experience and knowledge, which is the first major step in removing the stigma that damns us all My Alien Self: My Journey Back to Me
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8 of 8 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A gripping memoir 1 Aug 2012
By Michael
Format:Kindle Edition
This book is great ... I cannot recommend it highly enough ... Well written and brutally honest ... It's a moving, inspiring and exciting read from cover to cover ...This memoir is a must have read for all bpd suffers or people who want to try and understand the condition ... I couldn't put it down!
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6 of 6 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Honest and brave 23 Sep 2012
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I finished reading this book exactly one month ago. I find it really difficult to review a book that is, essentially, the story of another persons life. For this reason I have taken some time to try and strike a balance between the story and its presentation, which I truly hope I have managed to do.

The story is a no-holds-barred, this is me, account of a life packed with extremes. On many occasions I found myself actively disliking the writer. When it first happened I took a cup of coffee into my garden and thought about what I was feeling. I've undergone Cognitive Behavioural Therapy and it's good to discover why we feel the way we do instead of just reacting. My conclusion was that the author didn't like herself, at that point in her life, and I was feeling what she had felt.

I am in awe of Amanda's courage in writing this book and there were many times when she could have been describing me. For this reason I totally agree with Amanda's wanting to change the way mental illness is viewed and this leads to the presentation of the book.

I have long held the belief that mental illness is simply the way an individual mind deals with the realities of life. Society wants to file everything into neat little boxes, which in turn complicates things even more. However, I really believe that any approach to this subject is better left to after the personal story.

I actually skipped over parts that, to be brutally honest, felt a bit 'preachy' to continue the story. These parts of the book are, I feel, as important to Amanda as her personal journey and it would be a shame for them to be overlooked as they do contain an awful lot of really important information. This, I believe, is where there needs to be some serious editing; if only to separate the life that was from the life that is.
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5 of 5 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Hidden Suffering 31 Jan 2013
By Han
Format:Kindle Edition
I found this difficult to read at first having grown up with a mother suffering from schizophrenia, mental illness is not a pleasant, warm subject to read about or even think about, but its real and touches many lives, whether you are the sufferer or someone close to the person suffering.
I feel for Amanda has she has had to deal with the difficulties of living with a person with a severe mental illness, deal with the effects on the rest of the family around her and the way that this type of illness impacts on the dynamics of the whole family involved. You would think that life had dealt her enough at a young age and would have been kind to her and let her live a happy, free life as an adult, but no, she had to go on to confront the effects that her own abusive childhood has had on her and the fact that she had her own mental illness!
I admire her bravery and honesty, in fact brutally honest about herself and her life, she has been brave enough to write about aspects of herself and her behaviour that she admits, were not very nice and what many people would find too embarrassing to tell the world. But she did, and has shone a light on a side of life that is all too often hidden. This book does a very good job of showing that someone suffering from mental illness is just a person, the same as everyone else -but with an illness, and not to be feared, shunned and ridiculed, but given compassion and understanding along with the people living with it
Well Done Amanda
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Published 24 days ago by R D
5.0 out of 5 stars A RAW AND HONEST ACCOUNT
This is one of those books that stuck with me, for a long time afterward. Although, I knew what I was about to embark on, I clearly didn't know just how I would react. Read more
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5.0 out of 5 stars if you have or interested in borderline personality disorder or just...
I also have borderline personality disorder.and although not travelled as much,I was pleasantly surprised how simular I am with the feeling of the author. Read more
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4.0 out of 5 stars A Compelling Read
If you're like me and love finding out what makes others tick then look no further. This is a startlingly honest and extremely interesting account of one woman's battle with... Read more
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poignant and heartfelt journey of the struggles of mental health
Published 2 months ago by chaz prior
5.0 out of 5 stars Insightful, brave and honest
I read this a while ago and left my review on Goodreads, I am now writing it here!

I felt that for me, My Alien Self did two important things; it gave an honest... Read more
Published 2 months ago by sammylou
5.0 out of 5 stars Perfectly written
I relate to Amanda so much and this book has given me a lot of information to take away and think about. Read more
Published 4 months ago by Misha-zee Grant
4.0 out of 5 stars BPD memoir that's powerful, passionate and full of hope.
I read this book because I was diagnosed with BPD in 2012. Like the author, for many years previous to my diagnosis I struggled with eating disorders, substance abuse, terrible... Read more
Published 5 months ago by AD33
5.0 out of 5 stars Must-read books
I find these absorbing books by Amanda Green first-rate reading. There are three reasons I would describe them as 'must-read books'. Read more
Published 6 months ago by Hollyhock
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