once in a while you read something that stays with you, something thatcauses you to think and reflect on your life and just.. won't leave the dark recesses of your mind. lines or pieces of a story that refuse to be relegated to a bookshelf and haunts you even in your waking hours.
midori gave us a copy of her book when we had lunch with her last
week. having read through her LJ updates and various tribulations of her writing process, i plowed through the book in about 3 hours. she and i then talked about the book further and she asked me what i thought about a particular story, Love.
i came home and went back to the book, i remembered pieces of the story and i needed to re-read it to ensure that what i had read was right. i needed to go back to that particular story to ensure that what i had read was what was staying with me.
the story is wonderful, full of blood and gore and has a distinct sexyness to it, but it's not the story itself that entraps you, it's the backstory, the unwritten words and emotions that Midori manages to convey by what she purposely does not say, what she willingly left out. it's the lines in between the written ones that stay with you, wake you up at night and make you wish you could forget what you read. not because it's bad, because it's
too good, too close to life for comfort, at least too close to my life.
i'm haunted by the final images, the remote control with two simple words, two words i've repeated often, two words that take an eerie turn, a scary turn. those words; "Love & Serve".
how far would you go? how much would you lose yourself to please your One? would you give it all up, all of it; body parts, your mind, your physical and emotional self, to Love & Serve? i cannot stop thinking about the questions that the story asks you, i cannot stop thinking would i? did i? how far?. the story takes parts of our lives, a slave's life, and throws it back into your face. never does it take a preachy tone, never is not highly erotic but godamn if i can't stop my brain from going there, from being taken in by this story. the words glow at me from the page, their final resting place and they taunt me, i cannot help but be moved, disturbed and excited. very excited.
seriously, buy the book, read the story and then come and continue this conversation with me. i'm sure i won't be over it by then.