This is an interesting enough account of UDA leader Johnny Adair's long-term mistress, which doesn't really open up a lot of detail that we do not already know, but which paints a compelling picture of life inside Adair's "C Company" - a life of casual brutality, drug-taking, abuse and petty hatred. Jackie Robinson, 6 years senior to Adair, was with him for nearly a decade and clearly loved him - including trying to conceive his child during a quasi-conjugal visit when he was inside HMP Maze - but her account comes across as being quite self-pitying and regretful. Very many of the people who populate this book are grotesque - habitually violent, often high on drink and drugs, with little respect for others or indeed for themselves - and it is difficult to empathise with any of them. Overall, however, I wonder whether there's really enough subject matter in this account to make a 199-page book: maybe a 4 - 5 page feature in a magazine would have done better justice to the material. There is a lot of padding in this book - for example, page after page of background material on RUC interrogation techniques in the 1970s, or largely irrelevant descriptions of events which happened during Robinson's lifetime but which had nothing to do with the story of her life with Adair. Also, this book could have done with better sub-editing: it's shoddy but predictable that the (Dublin) publisher often refers to Northern Ireland and the UK as separate entities, when of course NI is part of the UK, and mis-spells the Shankill Road in Belfast as "Shankhill Road" (there's a suburb of Dublin called Shankhill, which explains this lazy sub-editing). I've given the book 2 stars - it would have merited 3 or maybe even 4 if the padding had been removed and the text better sub-edited. Overall, it's a decent enough read, but hardly likely to add much of note to the historical canon of Belfast's sectarian troubles.