As a theologian, Crossan's contributions to the birth of Christianity have had a significant intellectual and spiritual impact on me. Indeed, more than an priest in recent times, what he has written and the way he has approached subject have brought me back to my core beliefs. I was, therefore, intrigued to read his memoir. The memoir was quite disjointed, a fact I found a disappointing indication that the various phases of his life have not become integrated for him, but, instead, a series of disjointed phases held together by his boundless exuberance, curiosity, and adventurousness. As a reader, one of the things I ask a memoirist to be is honest, and in explaining his reasons for leaving monastic life and the priesthood, reasons I will not discuss for fear of ruining the read for others, is I think brutally honest. Being American, but having being educated some 15 years later in one of the finest convent girl's schools in Ireland, I can assure the readers of the excellence of the education and the harshness of the life. The "private school" education in no way compares with that of life in England's public school's, or the US's private schools, but the educational opportunities are excellent. I was shocked to read that academics and theologians who oppose his views on the historical Jesus dismiss him as an Irish "peasant." This speaks to the kind of arrogance I experienced upon returning from Ireland in the middle of my junior year in high school and being told that, because I'd been educated in a "third world" country, I would have to take remedial courses. It turned out to be quite the opposite. Even in isolated areas of country, the Irish are an extrememly sophisiticated people who have always placed a great stock in education which is church based for majority of children. Crossan's to how faithful Catholics might respond to the encyclical Humanae Vitae, so unacceptable and threatening to the Bishop of Chicago, had an internal logic and honesty that, to my mind, the Church, as a whole, has come to lack. Crossan dares to address the problem of how can one be a "good Catholic" given the current state of the Church and presents his way he resolved to live with the conflict. There are exceedinlgy powerful passages in the memoir. One concerns the vow of obedience and the manner in which it came to interfer with his relationship with God and the work that had become his mission. The passages about the death of his wife demonstrate that Crossan is not a man to shy from the processes that make us human beings who find, at times, that it is terribly hard, if not impossible to feel the presence of God. Crossan is an academc, a thelogian, who has written his firrst "personal" book that is filled with wit, humor, irony, wisdom, honesty and, I am the better, stronger, wiser for reading it.