Krivak's spiritual journey began when at the age of fourteen he read Thomas Merton's Seven Storey Mountain and decided he would become a monk. But Krivak's journey is his own, as Merton's was his; and it is, in the end, a very different one. Merton's quest brought him to life as a monk, and ultimately to life as a hermit, while Krivak became a Jesuit, not a monk, and his eventual destiny is as a husband and father.
The "long retreat" of the title has layers of meaning. A traditional part of Jesuit formation is the making of the Spiritual Exercises of St Ignatius, a long retreat of thirty days. But for Krivak, his eight years as a Jesuit were also one long retreat: not only a retreat in the spiritual sense, in which he tried to become more sensitive to the movements of the Holy Spirit and to the action of God in his life, but also, in his particular case, a retreat from a deep fear that if he ever allowed himself to be loved by another person, that other person would walk away. The book is the story of a quest: not only a quest for God in the author's personal life, but also a quest for an identity. And on another level, it is a quest for his own history, as Krivak explores the liturgy and ritual of his ancestors in Eastern Christianity.
But there is much more to the book than the author's personal story. Like its title, it has layer upon layer. It is a book about prayer and the spiritual life, and it is a book about Ignatian discernment. The author clearly has a great love for and understanding of Ignatius of Loyola, and his explanation of the spiritual exercises will do much to make the rather archaic language of the original text relevant for today's readers. Indeed, Krivak's own experience of making the spiritual exercises is central to the story.
The book is a gripping one. Although we know from the start that Krivak ultimately leaves the Jesuits, the story reads like a novel of suspense, as we follow him along a path of discernment that seems to lead him ever more surely to complete commitment as a Jesuit. How, we wonder, does this seemingly straight path suddenly turn around? This question pursues the reader almost right to the end.
I loved this book, and I highly recommend it.