I have just finished Caroline's debut novel, In Search of Adam. It's 11:30pm and I'm wandering around my bedroom allowing my heart beat to return back to normal. The book has made me think. It has made me wonder. About Jude. About Adam. And about Caroline Smailes and what an absolute genius of a writer she is. No words I write here can give justice to this brilliant novel.
The book is skilfully written using naïve childish words and sentences that befit the protagonist Jude. It makes the brutal actions she endures so much more shocking, so shocking that I often sat with my hand over my mouth. Caroline's writing is powerful unleashing equally powerful feelings within me. I wanted to go out and hunt this Eddie down. And hurt him. I wanted to swoop down from my settee and pluck Jude from her house and smoother her with the love she needed. I wanted to listen to her, let her speak the words out loud. Look after her.
To say Caroline has pushed boundaries is an understatement. The subject matter is terrifying, gripping, real. But it is her use of language, fonts, the repetitiveness of words and sentences that gives the reader a higher knowledge adding extra dimensions to Jude's story.
This book isn't an easy read. But you know that from the writing on the cover. Maybe for some it is an unnecessary read. For me, however, this book will stay with me long after I have written this review. It was compelling, evocative, honest and cleverly written. I didn't think I would like it because of the subject matter. In the end I loved it. If I could have given it more than 5 stars I would have.