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I'm Living But I'm Not Alive: Book One In The Black Caviar Thriller eBook Series [Kindle Edition]

Psymon H.
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Book Description

It's time for you to Fire up your Kindle for the most ingenious and movie-like thriller eBook Series, Black Caviar.

There's a new gangster in Chi Town, and his name is Daman. He's vicious, calculative and a genius in his own right. "I'm Living But I'm Not Alive" was the scary contradiction he uttered every night since the murder of his brother.

28 years later, the well renowned chess player sharpens the blades of capitalism with the American dream wet stone, and finds himself at the top table in the city's underworld. Rubbing shoulders with the Chicago Mayor, gives him amenities beyond the normal gangster's scope. He lives life as if it's the only thing he has.

On one hand, the devilishly good looking charmer is a family man, but on the other, he's the head of Chicago's most infamous D Organization. His hard and unforgiving exterior secretes a weakness that is exposed in the form of Jane, the series black widow. Please don't be fooled by her passion for high heels and sexy undergarments. She assumes the lingerie she displays is more than 'Agent Provocateur.' As she remembers from her days at law school, the words are a French legal term for "entrapment."

Tonight, the two meet at a luxurious boat party, which sparks a fear-provoking journey into the unknown. Can Daman avoid her mind-bending games, which threaten to loosen his grip on the Windy City's windpipe, or will Jane get caught up in her own sticky web of deceit and pay the ultimate price?

One thing's sure; Daman will understand what the great Abraham Lincoln once said: Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power.

You may want to switch off your phone and fasten your seatbelt for this book joyride; but be warned, there are many fast corners without brakes, and unforeseen dangers lurking in the dark. Your box seat is waiting, and so is a cast so well-developed, their dispositions overlaps believability. This is an Adult read.


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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 1923 KB
  • Print Length: 315 pages
  • Simultaneous Device Usage: Unlimited
  • Publisher: Psymon H.; 1st Manuscript: Updated 3.20.14 edition (11 Feb. 2014)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B00IE223UG
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Average Customer Review: 5.0 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (3 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #751,672 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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Psymon H. Black British Author With A Story To Tell; and wordsmith who carves out the most vivid movies with words.

Creator of the infamous Black Caviar Book Club, and a Klout score that puts him inside the top 40% social media influencers, this series is his first foray in the book world, and one he hopes will leave permanent footprints in the mind of every reader.

The mountains of America's West coast is where you can find him colossal braining another provocative Black Caviar episode inside his writing lab.

If his books were drinks for sale, he'd have the most thrilling distillery. Take a tall glass and fill it with revealing characters with flawed personalities; add a twist of conflict....Then gently drizzle in some infused eroticism over a mind-bending plot. Last but not least, stir in a large tablespoon of psychology.....Now You Have Premium Book Juice!

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5.0 out of 5 stars My Favorite Thriller eBook 21 Feb. 2014
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I always like to read thriller book stories. I already collected many thriller books. Recently I purchased “The Black Caviar” which is the best my favorite thriller eBook. I always enjoy those stories in this book when I read. My wife also loves this kind eBook. So when we get thriller eBook in amazon, I do not late to purchase. The Black Caviar is taken us on a journey into the underworld of drug dealers, murderers, prostitutes. So that was really awesome reading. I believe that every reader can enjoy when they will read this eBook. So don’t hesitate to purchase one copy of “The Black Caviar” thriller book.

I highly recommended to you that get this thriller books and enjoy those stories. You will not find out such this kind eBook. “The Black Caviar” is one of the most popular thriller eBook. Thanks
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5.0 out of 5 stars Truly gripping thriller! 17 Feb. 2014
By ryan
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Daman a kingpin character is a strange one, hes a ruthless criminal but to his family he is the most loving and protective guy ever.i think this character is what makes this thriller Ebook series so hard to put down! i have loved them from start to finish!
if your after a book with plenty of drama that will make you want to come back for more!

"An awesome physiological thriller"
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5.0 out of 5 stars A Nice Plot 15 Feb. 2014
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If you are looking for a fast paced story that grips you from the very first word, then this book is certainly for you. We meet Daman who is notorious and feared around all of Chicago. He is a man who is haunted by the death of his brother who was murdered in his presence several years earlier. Daman's world is littered with numerous characters and hangers on to whom we are introduced. Colourful characters like Cruz, 3 ways, Randy and Jane all intertwined in Damans world.
We are taken on a journey into the underworld of drug dealers, murderers, prostitutes and the unsuspecting "cuff girls" lured into the drug trade. The author takes us deep into the mind of the drug dealers full of suspicion and fear for their lives. He portrays vividly how some young girls are lured into prostitution and exposes the world of crooked police men.
Despite Daman's cold attitude and macho persona, he finds himself unwillingly falling in love with Jane who makes him vulnerable.
There are lots of twists and turns in the book as Daman's authority as the top gangster boss in Chicago is being challenged by an unknown enemy. As we get to the end of the book it becomes apparent he is also being betrayed.
This is a well thought out plot and very interesting too. The ending of book leaves you in suspense wanting more. A nice book to read.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Nothing Like It!! 9 Mar. 2014
By Nashae - Published on
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I'm Living But I'm Not Alive is one of those books that leave you wanting more when you reach the end. I’m not usually a big fan of gangster books. I usually prefer the innovativeness of gangster shows or movies. This book immediately changed my mind. Not only did this book change my mind, it also gave me a fresh perspective into the dangers of the windy city.

Damon is not the type of hero that you automatically fall in love with. He is ruthless and dangerous and for those reasons we do not see his world in shades of black and white, good and evil. We cringe at Damon’s unsavory faults, but we also secretly are rooting for him to win.

Psymon H. is an artist in the highest regards. He uses vivid words and details to paint a startling picture. I definitely recommend his work and I am about to get started on book number two as we speak!
2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Very interesting book 9 Mar. 2014
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Normally I do not like graphic books but this one is written with such intellect, that even graphic scenes are not lower it quality.
The story is going fast and without interruption, characters are bright and real. I did not have such good time with the book for very long time.
I do not want to spoil the reading, so I will not give away any collision from the book, just would like to say again- I have a very good time with it and recommend it to anyone who like good mystery, thriller and just a good reading.
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5.0 out of 5 stars A Well-Written Engaging Novel 18 Mar. 2014
By Mada Sraier - Published on
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Good thing this is a series because "I'm Living but I'm not Alive" is a great thriller. I think the reason why I liked so much is because the main character is so dark and complex. Daman is like a mysterious, violent gangster, but he also has a "light" side as well, factors which render the character all the more credible and real-like.

Besides the well-built protagonist, the action is also engaging. Now, maybe I'm biased because I love action/thriller novels (I have a whole stash in my room), but I think Psymon H.'s novel will appeal to any person who will read it. Besides, it's not all about violence, underworld mobs, and corrupt organizations - "I'm Living but I'm not Alive" is thought-provoking as well: it makes you wonder how much darkness resides in any person? What would you do if you were put in the same situation?

All in all, Psymon H.'s book is worth-reading: a dark atmosphere, a complex protagonist, and a gripping story, all make the novel engaging and entertaining.
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5.0 out of 5 stars A Roller Coaster Ride Worth Experiencing 10 Mar. 2014
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Psymon H. has concocted a wild and dangerous roller coaster ride of a start to his Black Caviar series. His main character, Daman, is a no mercy and no holds barred drug kingpin struggling to maintain his position at the top of Chicago's dark side. There aren't many he can trust to have his back, and when his girlfriend is kidnapped, even those few are called into question. The consequences for betrayal of the top dog are final, irreversible, and promise to be excruciating. Who is behind the abduction and ransom demand? Daman must find out or lose control of all he has achieved. And he'll need help, but deciding who he can trust will not be an easy responsibility. The story is fast-paced, action-packed, and keeps you wanting more. You never know what's going to happen around the next corner. The characters take on lives of their own, are well-rounded and believable. Psymon's depiction of the dark side of Chicago is interesting and credible. The cliff-hangar ending is so startling, you'll have to get the next book in the series just to find out what happened. This series is addicting! Psymon H. is a master of suspense. Well worth the purchase!
3 of 4 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars A gritty thrill ride one page at a time. 9 Mar. 2014
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I will try to review without giving away any spoilers. I’m Living But I'm Not Alive: Book One in the Black Caviar Series, is an entertaining and action packed thrill ride that will keep you turning pages. The main character Daman is the kingpin of the Chicago underworld. He is also the most ruthless man you would ever want to know.
While the story plays out like a cross between Breaking Bad, Miami Vice, and The Wire. It moves along at a good pace and keeps you hooked throughout the entire book. The plot is solid and carries completely though the book. There are no slow parts. The author is British so some grammar is slightly off and might bother some US readers. But it by no way harms the telling of the story. A word of note there are some extremely graphic scenes that may be to much for younger readers or those that are overly sensitive to violence.

I look forward to reading the next book in the series. I would recommend it to anyone who enjoys a crime novel.
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