-- but finding something else.
This brief book by "Melissa P," supposedly the cover model as well as author, takes the form of a diary. It's about a girl, just fifteen as the book opens, who delights in the pleasures of her woman's body. She is determined to find a dramatic, romantic love, the kind that makes "her heart melt ... [and her] icy stalactites shatter and plunge into a river of passion and beauty."
In other words, she has a teenager's overheated physical drive but no realistic direction. The first can be a wonderful thing, if it has a rewarding outlet, but that would be outlet of a kind she can't imagine or even recognize at first. That leads to a promiscuity without real satisfaction, and a slow spiral away from her original happiness in herself.
The ending is happy, though - a relationship that may lack in heat, but is filled with warmth. The low point of the book never gets destructively low, teen angst and bad grades at worst. And for all its physicality, there's nearly no real erotic content. (The title's "hundred strokes" are quite innocent.) As a novel, it's brief and bland, but parents of teenage girls are likely to find it very uncomfortable.
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