Television presenter Ulrika Jonsson started to write her autobiography at a very troubled time in her life. Her unborn child had been diagnosed with a rare and life-threatening heart condition, and she was facing it alone because the child's father had left her. She had a son by her first marriage to look after, and a string of failed relationships behind her. Seriously depressed, living with a constant barrage of media comment and criticism, she had lost any sense of who she was. Ulrika started to write as a way of trying to understand herself and her life. It took two years to complete.