Written at the end of 1999, when Chris McCully was hospitalised and treated for alcoholism for the third time, and during 2003, when he left England to begin a new career as a writer in the Netherlands, this is an honest, and at times painful, account of his ongoing recovery. Alcoholism is a lifelong condition from which there is no cure. Chris McCully does not offer warnings or exhortations, but gives witness to the banal, terrifying and commonplace nature of addiction, and to the slow process of recovery. Written from a position of unusual self-awareness and understanding, this book is an important and, hopeful, resource for mental health professionals. A personal account of debilitating mental and physical illness, this book should be read by all professionals working in the mental health field, and by anyone with an interest in alcoholism and recovery.