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God, If You're Not Up There, I'm F*cked: Tales of Stand-Up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-Altering Mayhem

God, If You're Not Up There, I'm F*cked: Tales of Stand-Up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-Altering Mayhem [Kindle Edition]

Darrell Hammond

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Tina Fey’s Bossypantsmeets David Carr’s The Night of the Gun in Darrell Hammond’sgroundbreaking memoir, God, If You’re Not Up There, I’m F*cked—a raw look inside the troubled life and mind of anAmerican comic genius. By turns poignant and hilarious, Hammond takes readersfrom the set of Saturday Night Live, where he was the show’slongest-tenured cast member, to the drug-ridden streets of Harlem and into thetwisting corridors of his own unflaggingly humorous consciousness. Minglingbehind-the-scenes stories from television’s best-loved comedy series with adark look inside a world-class funnyman, God If You’re Not Up There,I’m F*cked is a book sure to resonate with anyonewho shares a talent for performance, a love of comedy, or a desire to know howan artist can climb from the deepest despair to the very top of his profession.

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Darrell Hammond is an award-winning actor and comedian, and was a regular on Saturday Night Live for a record-setting fourteen seasons, from 1995 to 2009, where he earned a reputation as a master of celebrity voices and impressions. During his long run, he became famous for his acclaimed send-ups of President Bill Clinton, Vice President Al Gore, Vice President Dick Cheney, and Senator John McCain, among nearly 100 other figures. He lives in New York, where he continues to perform new material at the Comedy Cellar, a little too far for his tastes from his daughter Mia, who lives in Florida with her mother.

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  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 951 KB
  • Print Length: 355 pages
  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 0062088750
  • Publisher: Harper (8 Nov 2011)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B004X2J6XI
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #459,825 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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82 of 87 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars AMAZING GRACE! 12 Nov 2011
By bippi333 - Published on
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This was one of the best memoirs I have ever read. Darrell allows us into his brilliant and troubled mind, showing us the painful results of serious child abuse. The writing, itself, is spellbinding and funny. I loved reading about the insides of SNL and how difficult it is to actually put on a show. Never have I sensed the chaos and last minute changes that Darrell allows us to see. I have even more respect for all the SNL cast and employees as a result.

As a recovering person, I appreciate Darrell's integrity and honesty about his struggles. As a therapist, I appreciate his willingness to delve into his past and expose himself as well as the mental health community. I do disagree with the psychiatrist's recommendation to confront his parents because of exactly what happened. If the people being "confronted" are in therapy themselves and have the support to deal with the confrontation, it can work but in almost all cases I have seen it done, it is more harmful than helpful.

With all he has been through, Darrell could be bitter and angry but not one time does he bash anyone from his past or present. He seems to have an extraordinary ability to know people on a deep level and allows us to know them through his genuine eyes and heart. Darrell, there are millions of us out here who love and admire you and are cheering on your recovery and joy-filled life. You have earned it and deserve it!
56 of 68 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Best Book In Ten Years 10 Nov 2011
By Erica Phillipson (Hawaii) - Published on
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This is the best book I have read in the last ten years.

I listened to Darrell Hammond being interview by Howard Stern. I was shocked at what I heard. Just shocked. I ordered the book right away and read it in one day.

It is amazing that Darrell is still alive considering all the shear torture at this Mothers hands that he went through.

The wicked mother never admitted her behaviour. His father did right before he died.

At times I cried and at times I laughed.

Darrell - if you happen to read this review please know that we love you, that you belong on this earth, are valued and, with the publication of this book want you to make the second half of your life fulfilling and happy. You deserve it.

I highly recommed that you purchase and read "God, If You're Not Up There, I'm _______ (Amazon won't let me put the word even with an asteric): Tales of Stand-Up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-Altering Mayhem" by Mr. Darrell Hammond; Hardcover

Erica Phillips
(It is rainy in Hawaii right now but I still surf daily anyway)
22 of 25 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A real (funny) look into addiction and mental illness! 20 Nov 2011
By JBean1583 - Published on
I don't write book reviews. I don't pre-order books. I rarely even buy a hard-back. I do read A LOT of memoirs, and even more books on mental illness and/or addiction. I have suffered from both for over half of my life and feel as though I have been searching for that one book that would actually get it right. Darrell Hammond did that for me.
Only a few months out of rehab myself, the press for this book caught my eye while I was waiting to get my oil changed. Mr. Hammond was doing an interview on one of the news channels and I was enthralled. I immediately came home and ordered the book. According to his interview, we had almost identical experiences in rehabs (and psych-wards). I think I just needed to know that I wasn't the only one with my experience. I spent the past two days with my head in his pages.
I am so thankful for how raw he is when describing his trials. I am even more thankful for the lessons I took away from the last few chapters. He describes perfectly the mentality of an addict, and also that of a survivor.
I will warn you, the writing style is one that may take a few chapters to get used to. It would normally bother me that jumps around so much. Yet somehow, it is appropriate in this context. I think if it flowed perfectly, or was seamless it would take away from the experience of reliving this lifestyle. I really felt like someone went in my brain and put it on paper.
Thank you so much!!!
35 of 44 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Couldn't put the book down 10 Nov 2011
By sixpetes88 - Published on
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If it would be healthy for Darrell shout, "I have arrived!" - This would be a good reason to do so (but don't:). I couldn't put the book down. What a wonderful example of how sobriety and getting ones life is progressive, not overnight. I have no doubt this book was very therapeutic for the author. If I could, I'd thank him for sharing his trudging down that road to destiny with me. More will be revealed.
10 of 11 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Remarkable. This book moved me. 28 Nov 2011
By ali - Published on
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This book swept me away. I finished it over a week ago and am still thinking about it, thinking about him. The story is about so much more than abuse, addiction, recovery and SNL. It's about Darrell Hammond the individual and the artist. It reads much like how I imagine Darrell to be in person - he delivers the story in a measured, gracious and authentic voice, but withholds just enough to leave you wanting more.

His descriptions of abuse were delicate and precise ~ not sensationalizing or shocking, which is refreshing in this tell-all culture. Similarly, his celebrity and partying were relayed with no ego or glamour. At the same time he quietly weaves humanity through his journey from the gut wrenching joy/sorrow of boyhood baseball dreams to sitting in a steam room these days with Guys Who Used to Have It Going On. The emotion sneaks up on you. He's hilarious and smart and sad and joyful and hysterically funny and all the things that have always made him great.

He tells dozens of stories about comedy sketches that document an astonishing political history through the lens of SNL, while demonstrating that he has always been the consummate professional regardless of circumstance. Then there's his genius ability to study others and find their humanity, all the while revealing his own (i.e. a sociopath woman in rehab who will steal your heart). Even the way he describes a tiny interaction on stage at SNL left me pondering for days about his observations and sensitivity.

There's a transition from the last line of "The Last Chapter" and the first line of "The Real Last Chapter" that struck me as particularly brilliant, brave and exact in its honesty regarding the cliché that there is a permanent solution to life. For personal reasons I loved this.

The book is filled with poignancies and paradoxes that emerge and resonate long after you've read it. It did leave me wanting more of his story and more of him. I hope he writes more, acts more, and does more stand-up... and I hope he is well on his way to receiving all of the joy and compassion he has given.
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