- Paperback: 304 pages
- Publisher: Libros International (20 Feb 2007)
- Language English
- ISBN-10: 1905988087
- ISBN-13: 978-1905988082
- Product Dimensions: 19.6 x 12.7 x 1.8 cm
- Average Customer Review: 4.9 out of 5 stars See all reviews (14 customer reviews)
- Amazon Bestsellers Rank: 1,177,358 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)
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In the year 2000, Jacky watched Jaya, the man she loved, hover on the brink of insanity. It was the most traumatic and terrifying experience of her life. When his anguished search for enlightenment caused him to access dramatic spiritual insights and visions from other cultures and centuries, Jacky's life took on a turbulence she could barely manage. In Jaya's 'blinding vision' on his journey into the mind, God bestowed on him a dark and perilous mission to perform here on earth . and one that was accompanied by unlimited power. Soon his daily life began to run parallel with a story that was written five thousand years ago, bringing devastation and destruction to every area of his life. The incredible twists and turns that Jaya's 'spiritual crisis' took from this point on led Jacky to the brink of hell and back. Imagine an ego so wildly out of control that he claimed even 'God worked for him now!' This is an amazing true story. It is a story about love, heroism and . survival.
From the Author
"God Works for Me Now" is my uniquely personal story. It relates the devastating and somewhat 'surreal' account of my ex-partners intense 'spiritual emergency', the phrase coined for when a 'spiritual opening of consciousness' becomes a serious mental health crisis.
It is not a book about religion in any way, shape or form and although I anguished over the title, I felt guided to go with it, as this was the 'ego-driven' and diabolical 'claim' that my partner made at the height of his experience. Imagine an ego so wildly out of control, that he believed himself the Saviour of all mankind and that God was his employee! Then imagine for a moment being on the receiving end of those forceful energies, 'narcissism', love turned on the self, - playing out to an extreme and dangerous level.
At the height of the experience, Jai slipped into an illusory world of spontaneous 'visions' and dramatic spiritual insights, which often left me see-sawing between his overwhelming euphoria on the one hand and his acute state of anxiety on the other.
Quote from Chapter Three; "I was thrown into a world of unfathomable outbursts, wild fanciful claims and twisted rages ..." and as a result, my life took on a turbulence I could barely master. The bizarre twists in mood, the intense emotions and the inexplicable rage were always lurking just below the surface ... and inevitably gave way to bursts of physical violence.
It was an experience that took myself and my two children to hell and back. Picture one example when Jai, (my ex-partner) ordered my (then) nine year old to "take a knife from the kitchen drawer" and then added in a calm and forceful manner; "Now cut off my little finger, I will not bleed and I will not feel pain".
This daily roller-coaster ride to hell, took me to the brink of emotional and mental collapse, financial ruin and homelessness. But it was also an experience which forced me into the realms of mental health research, in a desperate attempt to understand and help the man I loved. As a Psychotherapist, and someone acutely interested (and practised) in various healing modalities, I believed myself to have the awareness and understanding to be equipped to deal with such an event.
I learned two very valuable lessons in the school of life; 1)that it is not possible to 'save' another human being and 2)that 'letting go' is an act of love in itself ... and in all of this, I learned a great deal about myself as well.
I wanted to recount my story, primarily to bring awareness to Narcissistic Personality Disorder, a condition that grips more than 1% of the population and a disorder that is as devastating and destructive to those affected by it, as to the sufferer himself.
Someone once said, "forgiveness is an inside job". I believe them. I had to learn to let go of Jai with forgiveness and understanding.
I hope my story answers some important questions about the 'myriad' of intensly associated symptoms that can accompany the anguished search into enlightenment... as well as serve as a message of hope to those who find themselves in similar circumstances, believing there is no way out.
I share with you my experience, with courage, integrity and love. Namaste.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful:
5.0 out of 5 stars
An honest and mind blowing account of love and control,
By Charlie B (Birmingham, England) - See all my reviews
This review is from: God Works for Me Now (Paperback)
I originally purchased this book as I knew the author through her therapeutic work and was curious about the content. I wasn't prepared for the story that unfolded and couldn't put it down until I knew how Jacky's trauma ended.
Her direct and poignant script made me feel I was in the experience with her; I found myself tensing at the prospect of her partner's entrance and unpredictable behaviour. The start of the book introduces the reader to a sample of her partner's delusional rantings; the seeds are sown for the darkness which follows. This is not a book to dip in and out of, unless you have no curiosity or compassion, it compells you to read every last word in an attempt to find answers to this tragic situation. Anyone struggling to understand why victims of domestic violence stay in relationships should read this book. Jacky was manipulated and controlled by 'Jai' on many levels and was rendered powerless by him. She had many strengths and abilities, yet this relationship nearly destroyed her. Jacky's account reminds us how vulnerable we ALL are; physically, mentally and spiritually. This is a book I will never forget. I wish Jacky and her family a more peaceful future and look forward to the next publication.
1 of 1 people found the following review helpful:
5.0 out of 5 stars
A can't put down read!,
By Patsy "Pat" (Spain) - See all my reviews
This review is from: God Works for Me Now (Paperback)
Reads like a novel,but a true story. I dare you to start and stop before the end. Riveting! Started reading at 9 pm, finished at 5.30 am, wish she could type faster for the sequel!! Outstanding!
5.0 out of 5 stars
Tragic, harrowing, disturbing. A brilliant book,
This review is from: God Works for Me Now (Paperback)
I only read this book because I was a school with Jacky and in more recent years our paths have crossed again. Knowing the author made this true account of an abusive bully all the more disturbing and at times distressing. Having worked as psychotherapist with women who have experienced all levels of domestic abuse I believe a copy should be available in all refuges. It made me wonder how many abusers suffer from undiagnosed narcissistic personality disorder - makes a joke out of anger management courses the courts used to send them on. I hope and pray Jai receives and accepts the appropriate help he needs, someday.
A brilliant book, excellently written. Jacky somehow manages to convey the light of the human spirit triumphing (sometimes only a glimmer) throughout her book. It explores the overwhelming pain of loving a damaged soul. Then the sad realization that this love can't conquer his illness. I could go on and on........... buy the book and see how it makes you feel.
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