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And I Don't Want to Live This Life [Mass Market Paperback]

Deborah Spungen
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July 1994
For most of us, it was just another horrible headline. But for Deborah Spungen, the mother of Nancy, who was stabbed to death at the Chelsea Hotel, it was both a relief and a tragedy. Here is the incredible story of an infant who never stopped screaming, a toddler who attacked people, a teenager addicted to drugs, violence, and easy sex, a daughter completely out of control--who almost destroyed her parents' marriage and the happiness of the rest of her family.

"Honest and moving...Her painful tale is engrossing."


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  • Mass Market Paperback
  • Publisher: Fawcett Books; Reissue edition (July 1994)
  • Language: English
  • ISBN-10: 0449205436
  • ISBN-13: 978-0449205433
  • Product Dimensions: 17.3 x 10.4 x 2.5 cm
  • Average Customer Review: 4.8 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (52 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: 715,465 in Books (See Top 100 in Books)

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18 of 18 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A very sad but absolutely riveting book 20 Oct 2003
I first read this book a few years ago and was so gripped by the story that I read it in two days. It is a shocking testament to the way the medical profession can get things so wrong and ultimately lay the foundations for years and years of heartbreak a parent may then have to suffer as a result. Clearly descriptive of a loving family who wanted to do all they could to help their troubled daughter make life better. I have read Sex Pistol books that refer to Nancy Spungeon as 'Nauseating Nancy'. It makes me sad that these human beings who coined that label clearly didn't know the extent of Nancy's troubled life, how much her family loved her and how hurtful it must have been to have heard your duaghter referred to as 'Nauseating Nancy'. I would recommend anyone who has even the slightest interest in human life and basic human decency to read this book. It was a very poignant book.
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4.0 out of 5 stars So So Sad 1 Jan 2005
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I devoured this book in one evening - it really was compulsive reading. I did come away with a far better perception of Nancy despite the hell she put her parents through - I no longer thought she was the person portrayed in many other books on punk I have read. The one thing that did perplex me is why did Mrs Spungen refer to John Lydon and John Lyman? In fact I found the few paragraph's which did refer to the English punk scene not particularly well researched however the book isn't supposed to be about punk so it doesn' really matter. This is such a painful book I really recommend it to anybody who is at all interested in the workings of a human being.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Unbelievably moving 8 July 2005
I first read this book aged 15. I re-read it uncountable times. I lost my copy in a house move and have been searching for a replacement copy. Have ordered one and can't wait to get my mits on it! This is not a book I would have immediately chosen, however I read it on recommendation and was captivated by it in an instant. Amazing writing style, emotive, raw, and addictive. I would recommend this book without a moments hesitation. Nancy's mother is able to convey every image and every feeling with such depth that you feel the pain and confusion of both Nancy and her mother. She is wearing her heart on her sleeve.
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5 of 5 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Heart wrenching and disturbing ! 12 April 1999
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I have a four year old daughter that too was born with lack of oxygen. And now as I read this book I feel like someone is writing about my daughter. The things she does are the same as what Nancy did. Her fits and her temper just everything all relates to my life and my little girl.The doctors tell me she is normal!But I know they are wrong because no mother should have to lock herself in the bathroom just to get away from her four year old. Nore should any mother have to go to bed at night crying because her little girl hates her! And no matter what mommy says or does my baby still hates me.But they say she is nomal! She's not, but knowone can help me they say she's just bad.I know my baby best and she doesn't want to be this way something just snaps in her head.I'm afraid for her cause the doctors just want to fill her full of medication. But I won't allow her to take anything.Drugs are just not the answer to her problem. I cry for help but everyone just sluffs us off. I just pray that someday she will be ok! And her life will not turn out like Nancy's did. Hopefully someday soon someone will here my cry for help to deal with these disturbed children. Before society rules them out to be worthless kids with poor attitudes. sencerly, T. Matthews
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5.0 out of 5 stars MY FAVOURITE BOOK 15 Mar 2002
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I read this book when it first came out and my copy is so dog eared after many times of reading i was looking for a new copy!! This is the most honest book about Nancy ever and the suffering her mother goes through is unbelieveable. Thankyou for opening up to the world your personal suffering and for giving us an insight into Nancy.
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4 of 4 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A sad story, but a real eye opener. 16 Oct 2004
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Nancy Spungen, a troubled child from birth, meets Sid Vicious of the infamous British band, The Sex Pistols... we all know the story, but what we don't know is what happened before and in between the time she came to England to "Bed a Sex Pistol". This book explains the absolute torment her parents endured for 20 years, Nancy's hold and influence on her family almost tearing them apart. Well written and well documented, this book is an absolute must for all you Sex Pistols fans and anyone who's interested in psychology or even just a good autobiography.
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2 of 2 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Achingly sad. 13 Nov 2007
Format:Mass Market Paperback
I bought this book out of curiosity: I was 10 when the Sex Pistols were at their height, a little bit too young to be part of "the blank generation", but the whole punk scene fascinated me for years. I am now a mother of two wonderful kids, so reading this book for me has a special poignancy which I think only a parent can relate to. In a way, it reminded me of what I put my own mother through,as I was a rebellious, difficult person for many years, being as shocking as I could be and getting caught up in too many bad scenes. I am now clean and sober and have been for manyy years, and now I can see the grief that a child can cause its parents, and I also now understand the unconditional absolute love a parent has for a child. Deborah Spungen writes in such an incredible way; this is raw emotion, but never once do I feel she is portraying herself as a "poor little me". Quite the opposite, she shows her strengths in this book, bending over backwards to try and help her child, her every waking moment consumed by the search for answers to Nancy's negative and incredibly damaging behaviour. As a parent, I hope I never have to suffer the unbearable grief this lady has suffered, watching her firstborn special child selfdestruct before her eyes, and feeling so helpless and unable to stop the destruction. Heartbreakingly sad, I am not ashamed to admit I wept freely often while reading this excellent book. This is the real deal, the truth about the disturbed, misunderstood, loose cannon who was Nancy. Accept no imitation. My heart goes out to Deborah Spungen and her family.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Honest, moving, painful and engrossing
Disturbing and heart-breaking account of a loving mother powerless in the face of her daughters advancing schizophrenia. Read more
Published 3 days ago by Mrs. C. B. Newton
5.0 out of 5 stars A story from the heart sad and brutal this was the life of Nancy
Reading this book you get the full story of Nancy Spungen and not what the press made up about her,a really sad story of a family trying to do their best and no one wants to... Read more
Published 2 months ago by leemondo fuzzbuck
5.0 out of 5 stars Five Stars
I read this book ages ago and I really like it but it's sad in places
Published 2 months ago by joyce pattinson
5.0 out of 5 stars nancy spungen
i cried as i read this book....though now quite old media news ,the deaths of nancy and syd seem to pan the sands of time. Read more
Published 4 months ago by jesse
5.0 out of 5 stars a brilliant read
such a wonderful, well written book, it gives an insight into the punk era,
shows the hardship in coping iwth a child/adult with psychological problems and the effects of... Read more
Published 6 months ago by kate
5.0 out of 5 stars great book
Really enjoyed reading this book would recommend to everyone, the book is very clearly written so you feel like you are living in their lufe
Published 6 months ago by Amazon Customer
5.0 out of 5 stars brilliant!!
Absosouloutly brilliant!!!
I really enjoyed this book!!
I grew up in the era of nancy and the sex pistols....!! And remember all the hype at that time!! Read more
Published 6 months ago by cassie
5.0 out of 5 stars Fascinating and well worth it
I started reading this before bed one night - it was so gripping I stayed up till 4am to finish it in one sitting, and it hardly felt like any time at all. Read more
Published 7 months ago by K. Fearon
5.0 out of 5 stars Wow
Wow... this book really broke my heart; what a harrowing tale. I can't even begin to explain how sad I feel towards the Spungen family, Nancy was just a tragedy, I can't imagine... Read more
Published 7 months ago by Amie
5.0 out of 5 stars Nancy, forever loved
I have loved the Sid and Nancy story ever since I heard about it. I'm glad I read this book as I got to know the girl behind the face. Read more
Published 8 months ago by Miss Lisa L. Blyth
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