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Cross Examined: An Unconventional Spiritual Journey [Kindle Edition]

Bob Seidensticker
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In 1906, three men share a destiny forged by a prophecy of destruction. That prophecy comes true with staggering force with the San Francisco earthquake and fire, and young assistant pastor Paul Winston is cast into spiritual darkness when his fiancée is among the dead. Soon Paul finds himself torn between two powerful mentors: the charismatic pastor who rescued him from the street and an eccentric atheist who gradually undercuts Christianity’s intellectual foundation.

As he grapples with the shock to love and faith, Paul’s past haunts him. He struggles to retain his faith, the redemptive lifesaver that keeps him afloat in a sea of guilt. But the belief that once saved him now threatens to destroy the man he is becoming.

Paul discovers that redemption comes in many forms. A miracle of life. A fall from grace. A friend resurrected. A secret discovered. And maybe, a new path taken. He realizes that religion is too important to let someone else decide it for him. The choice in the end is his—will it be one he can live with?

Cross Examined challenges the popular intellectual arguments for Christianity and invites the reader to shore them up … or discard them. Take the journey and see where it leads you.

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About the Author

After graduating from MIT in 1980, Bob Seidensticker designed digital hardware, about which he wrote his first book, The Well-Tempered Digital Design (Addison-Wesley, 1986). He has programmed in a dozen computer languages and in environments ranging from punch cards, to one of the first windowing environments, to MS-DOS, to Windows (starting with version 1.0). He is a co-contributor to 14 software patents and has worked at a number of technology companies from a 10-person startup to Microsoft and IBM.

Since leaving Microsoft, he has focused on writing. Future Hype: The Myths of Technology Change (Berrett-Koehler, 2006) explored technology change—how we see it and how it really works. Cross Examined is his first novel.

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  • Page Numbers Source ISBN: 1468011332
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After graduating from MIT in 1980, Bob designed digital hardware, about which he wrote his first book, "The Well-Tempered Digital Design" (Addison-Wesley, 1986). He has programmed in a dozen computer languages and in environments ranging from punch cards, to one of the first windowing environments, to MS-DOS, to Windows (starting with version 1.0).

Bob is a co-contributor to 14 software patents and has worked at a number of technology companies from a 10-person startup to Microsoft and IBM.

Since leaving Microsoft, Bob has focused on writing. "Future Hype: The Myths of Technology Change" (Berrett-Koehler, 2006) explored technology change--how we see it and how it really works.

"Cross Examined: An Unconventional Spiritual Journey" is his first novel.

Bob lives in the Seattle area (in the northwest corner of the United States) with his wife Sandy and dog Wheezer.

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5.0 out of 5 stars An excellent read! 16 July 2014
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I've long been a reader of Bob Seidensticker's blog Cross Examined, and bought this book after reading some excerpts on it. I have to give it five stars because I feel that four - which Amazon tells me means "I like it" didn't seem enough. Five stars means I love it, and I did love reading this book!
Mind you, it's not without its flaws. Halfway through the book I was planning to give it three stars. But I was pleasantly surprised when...

Spoiler alert!

...Paul's conversion to atheism was not the end of the story, and it continued to a rousing and exciting climax.
I've always foundBob Seidensticker to be an excellent nonfiction writer, but that doesn't always translate into good skill in writing fiction. And indeed there are some flaws in the writing, which I am sure will Bob will improve on as he continues writing novels. Especially in the first half, I found the characters rather strained and sometimes poorly drawn, sounding as if they had words put in their mouths. This improved as the book continued, however, and it seems to me that the characterisation in the second half of the book is definitely improved.
Despite these flaws, I have to give this book five stars as it is such an enjoyable read. I was really rooting for Paul as the debate grew nearer, and it made for a very exciting story. I was also pleased to see other interesting story elements as well - the Japanese Buddhist monastery, Athena's feminism, the reactions of the townspeople and the different types of bigotry displayed.
Apart from being a very good story, this is also a good vehicle for showing up the problems with apologetics arguments. Although one might say that the behaviour of some of the characters wasn't very typical, it's the author's story - and besides which, just because Samuel, for example, didn't act in the way many other pastors would have acted that doesn't mean that he didn't act as he, the character in the story, would have acted.
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3.0 out of 5 stars Cross Examined examined. 9 May 2013
I was sent a free copy of this book to review.

This book is written as an undermining of Christian intellectual arguments. It is a novel, but in the dialogue between key characters, arguments are presented and then attacked (though the word attack suggests aggression, which there isn't really much of in the book!)

Bob Seidensticker has certainly gone to a lot of effort to present a clear defense of atheism, and in many ways he does this well. For those interested or involved in apologetics, there might not be may surprises, but the atheist character in the novel, `Jim', is eloquent and clear without the aggression of, say, Dawkins. Pascal's Wager (the, `you may as well believe in God because if you don't and you're wrong, you go to hell, and if you do and you're wrong, you just end up living a nice life and then die without knowing you were wrong') is all very well, for example, but once more than one religion exists, it rather crumbles...

However, I think I have a problem with this book. That is, Christianity is not just attacked intellectually (which I don't mind - Christians need to be well equipped in apologetics). Rather, Christianity is undermined through the presentation of the key characters in the book. There are basically three characters in the book: Samuel, a church leader; Paul, his `apprentice' - an ex-orphanage rescue project; Jim, an agoraphobic atheist. The atheist is someone who you want to feel sorry for, because he has been wronged by the church, his life history is painful and Christianity has driven him, in many ways, to the brink.
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4.0 out of 5 stars Story as vehicle for propaganda 19 Mar. 2013
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This is a pretty good story. It's also propaganda, but there is nothing wrong with that, especially if one knows from the start that this is what it's going to be. The meat is in the atheist-theist argumentation, but the plot does manage to hold its own and is interesting.

It's not the case that the book is set up as a fair, two-way dialog or debate, despite what several other reviewers have said. Nor do I think that most Christians will find it very appealing unless they are already searching for alternatives (or have never thought much about the issue). Rather, the book is more of a morality play with the protagonist an honest seeker who courageously moves from theism to atheism under the tutelage of a wise, atheist father figure, and the villain a grasping, despicable preacher who uses religion more than he lives by it--all stereotyped. Hence we can hardly say that the stage is set for a fair dialog.

The arguments themselves are, of course, slanted toward the atheist viewpoint as well. The interplay would have been more convincing if the theistic side was presented more strongly, but then it may not be possible to develop the nuances of a fair debate while still keeping the story alive.

All that is not to say that it's not a good book. It is good. Just don't think it's an attempt to explore a complex struggle between faith and doubt.
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3.0 out of 5 stars Intellectual chess with no clear winner - 28 April 2013
By ckuniholm - Published on
The narrative of Cross Examined offers conventions of plot: a half-hearted love story, uncertain identity, mounting tension between rival mentors, a young man facing traumatic past and uncertain future.

Yet the plot, and the characters themselves, are little more than a framework for the interplay of ideas. Between two formal debates that frame the action, young protagonist Paul shuttles between pastor and recluse, rebutting arguments from one, gathering ammunition from the other, an almost featureless pawn in the battle of belief.

The story suffers, but the ideas suffer as well. Arguments both for and against belief are flattened, misrepresented, treated as little more than markers in a competitive game that resembles poker more than chess: "I'll meet your ontological arguments and raise you one Pascal's wager."

The novel introduces arguments for and against the existence of God, the truth of scripture, the possibility of miracle, but in a way that seems heavily weighted toward the author's own assumptions. Those who represent Christian belief (a bombastic, dishonest minister, a paternalistic priest, a flat, authoritarian father) appear slightly dim-witted, while atheist Jim is the voice of reason.

Jim tells Paul: "faith is immune to facts. . . And that's the biggest clue that Christianity is false: it's built on faith. Believing something because it's reasonable and rational requires no faith at all." In the intellectual chess game Seidensticker has constructed, facts and logic are the highest values, sweeping all opposition from their path.

At the same time, there's an odd undercurrent to the novel's slight narrative.

Jim lives in such a place of distrust he is unable to leave his home. He's been trapped in one place since he left the church and abandoned his faith over two decades earlier. As he invites Paul deeper into his logical agnosticism, he also invites Paul into a place of isolation and paralysis.

In the end, Paul seems required to choose between reasoned loneliness or irrational acceptance of a more productive and emotionally healthy community. Is that Seidensticker's point? Or is Paul so programmed to be a pawn that the loss of one mentor sends him reeling back toward the other? It's hard to tell - and by that point in the story - equally hard to care.
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5.0 out of 5 stars Reason and Faith - Christianity 13 Dec. 2011
By Benjamin J. Barrett - Published on
Since the beginning of Christianity, people have debated whether god exists.

Written in the form of a novel, "Cross Examined" takes us through many of the arguments that people have used as proof that god does or does not exist. In the end, "faith" is a critical part of religion.

I liked the story, and even more, liked the way Seidensticker moves through the arguments so they can be enjoyed in the same leisure way as a novel.

Disclaimer: I have known the author for a number of years and read different drafts of the novel.
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3.0 out of 5 stars Cross Examined 28 Jun. 2013
By Sheep23 - Published on
Cross Examined: An unconventional spiritual journey by Bob Seidensticker

Cross Examined takes a closer look at the relationship between faith and arguments against Christianity through the lens of a story. The novel centers around Paul, a man who was taken off the streets into the ministry with Samuel, the senior pastor of The First Church of God in San Francisco. All the while this is happening, Paul's fiancee is trapped in the ruins of the earthquake that has just taken place (set in 1906). The charismatic pastor, Samuel, is known for both his prophetic utterances but also his debating of serious issues every year at his own apologetics conference. The tale unfolds as Samuel sends Paul out to minister to a man named Jim, who had been holed up in his house for almost twenty years, bearing the pain of a lost love. Little does he know, Paul is stepping into the house of a man armed with the intellectual rigor to argue against Christianity but also one who knows Samuel.

I appreciated the way that Jim interacted with Paul in the book to refine his arguments for Christianity or find some better ones. At one part in the story, Jim engages the question of how the oral message of the gospels was transmitted by saying, "When I corrected your story just now, I was reading from a book - that's our authority. There was no book when the Jesus story was oral tradition. When two people's memories, whose was right"? (68-69). Paul has to hone his arguments in here at this point to really point out how oral tradition works, because Jim is quick to point out the holes in his argument. I like the back and forth of the argumentation in the story that pushes the believer to strengthen the argument for belief so it is logical and watertight. The difference between Samuel and Paul in the book is a chasm of one trying to find solid answers for the things of faith and the other reciting the old answers to the same questions. It takes some mental and moral imagination to be willing to examine the evidence and evaluate truth claims for any argument.

The story winds its way through some backstory into how Jim and Samuel knew each other from before and their apparent fallout. I find myself really enjoying the book and saddened as well. I enjoyed the book because this kind of thing really happens, the part in which one man struggles with their faith through engaging a person of a different persuasion and another is not willing to be humbled by his own faith. Secondly, another major point in the book was that often the most ardent followers of the Christian faith don't examine their faith as stringently as they should and leave those with doubts on the sidelines. Yet, the very essence of faith is that you examine that same faith with all the rigor of a scientist, not bowing to arguments because they have been made before, but finding good scholarship that answers the question.

Lastly, I would say that although the engagement between Paul and Jim, and finally Samuel and Paul was rather one-sided. There was not much discussion about the merits of atheism or agnosticism. Furthermore, there was not much discussion about the rather prideful assertion that atheists point out deficiencies in the Christian faith with no moral ground to do so. Secondly, even in the discussion on orality, one can find very good resources that bolster the gospels and their trustworthiness by scholars of repute. Just because people's memories were different, doesn't necessarily lead us to believer that one was right and one was wrong. Different perspectives are elicited because people are looking through different angles.

I think this is a good story that focuses on the plight of faith and its critics. If you are willing to investigate the claims of your faith, and see how this makes a difference in conversations with others, this book will give you an example of how these issues play out.

Thanks to Bob Seidensticker for the free copy of the book in exchange for an unbiased review.
3 of 4 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars Very Convincing Arguments Against Christianity 18 April 2013
By Ben Raines - Published on
Think of every doubt and argument you've ever had about the God of Christianity. In Bob Seidensticker's novel "Cross Examined", those doubts are given a voice. For those who thank God they were born in America and thus exposed to the truth about our Creator, this book has the potential to make you wonder if you haven't been the victim of centuries of rumors and folklore. It has the potential to steal what little faith you thought you had. This is the book that could fulfill the prophesy about believers falling away from the Church in the end-times.

Bob Seidensticker is an atheist and the author of 'Future Hype - the Myths of Technology Change.' A former software engineer, Seidensticker now blogs and writes about using logic to challenge faith. He makes excellent points: Why does an omnipotent, omnipresent God hide from His Creation? When a Christian responds with "God is evident everywhere," Seidensticker counters with "Prove it." When a Christian credits Jesus with his or her salvation, Seidensticker claims there is nothing to the biblical accounts but narrative repeated and embellished over the decades and centuries following his life. It is almost impossible to counter the author's logic and reason with equal degrees of proof. Your own conversion and experiences mean nothing - it's simply an illusion you're living in.

Without giving away the excellent points the author scored for science and reason, I have one disagreement with him. Seidensticker asserts that if God really exists, a person simply could not choose to believe in Him. They would be compelled to believe. Here his reason fails. Muslims choose to believe in Allah, Hindus choose to believe in millions of gods, Buddhists believe in Buddha. Certainly the culture in which a person is raised has a powerful impact on that person's world-view and belief system. But it is possible to change one's mind - as the author has done. He admits he was a 'light' Christian at one time due to his Presbyterian upbringing. His confrontations with a more charismatic family member led him to first doubt, then reject the whole idea of Christianity.

I give Cross Examined four stars. He could have earned five if he hadn't cheated on his arguments against religion. If Seidensticker's goal is to get people to think for themselves and weigh the evidence, he should not have chosen to make the adversary so easy to dislike. Had he been fair in his attacks against faith, Seidensticker could have written a story about the conflict between an atheist and a sincere, likable pastor. By demonizing the senior pastor and revealing character traits that are uncommon for the most part in pastors, Seidensticker has watered down his credibility. If all Christians and all pastors, or even the majority were like those portrayed in Cross Examined, Seidensticker's novel would destroy Christianity. And, like other Western unbelievers, Seidensticker paints Christianity as the worst of the lot when it comes to religions. The author is unwilling to acknowledge that, even if people's faith is in a fictional being, that Christians have contributed far more to helping people in need than any other group of people, especially the cold, analytical thinkers like the author.

Cross Examined is a book that can shatter your faith; and if you are already uncertain about what is truth and what is human error, then you might not want to read this book. My own spiritual journey has wandered away from the Christianity that I was raised in. I'm no longer certain what portions of the Bible are relevant today or simply historical accounts of a nomadic tribe of people thousands of years ago. I'm not naive enough to think that because I'm an American that we have an inside track to the truth, but I've lived long enough to know that whether it's a religious zealot or an ardent atheist, everybody is trying to sell you something. I'm choosing to not buy into Seidensticker's world-view; but it doesn't mean that I shouldn't use the mind God gave me to think for myself.
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