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Alex [Kindle Edition]

Adam J Nicolai
4.7 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (108 customer reviews)

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Product Description

Ian Colmes fears he's going mad.

His son, Alex, was killed six months ago. The boy was only five years old. In the wake of his death, Ian drove his wife away and nearly lost his job. Now, alone in an empty house, Ian is seeing his son again.

Every vision is a repeat of something Alex said or did in life: aching memories replaying themselves for Ian's eyes alone. Are these images of Alex real? Has he found a way back, to forgive or condemn his father?

Or has Ian's sorrow quickened into psychosis?

With a masterful hand, bestselling Kindle Horror author Adam J Nicolai paints a picture of grief, madness, and the furious strength of a father's love for his son.

Amazon readers are saying:

"Mr. Nicolai maintains a sense of creeping disquiet and uncertainty throughout the narrative; I was unsure whether Ian was haunted by his son or slowly going crazy until the last few pages of the novel."
- Uncle Progress - 5 stars

"I ... found myself marveling at how well-crafted many sentences are. I would find myself stopping and re-reading them, just so I could savor their beauty a little longer."
- Basil Owen - 5 stars

"Mr. Nicolai uses language beautifully. He paints very vivid images in very few words and he does so brilliantly." - Tifainé N. Highly - 5 stars

"Mr. Nicolai's brutally straightforward prose and clear love for his characters... combine into something vital and hungry (like the early works of - dare I speak his name? - Stephen King)."
- Ryan J. Holthaus - 5 stars

"[O]ften it is easy to see why any given writer had to self publish (and often seemingly without any editor). That is definitely not the case here. The writing was intense, compelling and intelligent."
- Beth C - 4 stars

"[T]he ending was nailed perfectly."
- Jason Plowman - 5 stars

"For anyone who has been near people in the depths of horrific and insatiable grief, Ian's hundred mile an hour flight into emotional and physical self-destruction rings true."
- Shawna B. - 5 stars

"During the climax of the story my 1.5 year old daughter read my emotions and instinctively curled up in my arms and remained there [for the] rest of the book. This was not just a story for me - it was an experience."
- Ben - 5 stars

"If Alex [is] a sign of things to come, keep your eyes on this author. You will not regret it."
- Grace McDonough - 5 stars

Alex, by Adam J Nicolai. You will not sleep tonight.

About the Author

Adam J Nicolai lives near Minneapolis, MN with his wife, Joy, and their two children, Isaac and Rydia. He is a life-long nerd, game lover, author, Star Wars fan, Dungeon Master, and amateur game designer, as well as a former policy debate coach. He is currently a Project Manager for a major medical insurance company. He started writing in elementary school, creating Choose-Your-Own-Adventure style books while he was supposed to be listening in class. His creative expressions widened to include video game design; he filled countless additional notebooks with expansive maps, dialog trees, loot lists, game stats, and mechanics. When he got older he was known to occasionally draft his younger cousin into play-testing, and authored three rule sets for role-playing games (which his gaming peers readily play-tested, in role-playing campaigns that lasted for 5 years or more). He attended high school at Park Center Senior High, where he had the distinct privilege of being in Brad Olson and Sue Hein's Humanities class, which fostered his love of creative writing and planted a seed that would sprout many years later. He married his wife, Joy, in 1997. She was seventeen. They promptly moved cross-country together to Washington, DC. Nine months later they decided DC sucked, and moved back to Minnesota, where they have lived happily ever since. Adam self-published his first novel, Alex, in November, 2011 after becoming disillusioned with the traditional publishing industry. You will hear more from him.

Product details

  • Format: Kindle Edition
  • File Size: 1378 KB
  • Print Length: 305 pages
  • Publisher: Lone Road Publishing, LLC; 2nd edition (25 Nov 2011)
  • Sold by: Amazon Media EU S.à r.l.
  • Language: English
  • ASIN: B006FA7Z8E
  • Text-to-Speech: Enabled
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  • Average Customer Review: 4.7 out of 5 stars  See all reviews (108 customer reviews)
  • Amazon Bestsellers Rank: #111,373 Paid in Kindle Store (See Top 100 Paid in Kindle Store)
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9 of 10 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars scary.... 3 Oct 2012
By Sheryl
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A great debut novel - had me gripped right from the very start. Like some of the reviewers, the short chapters made me want to keep reading right into the night to find out what happened. The book was a bit scary; made me jumped late one night when a gentle breeze from a window on a vent blew my bedroom door opened with a creak!

Brilliant book - will definitely recommend it.
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7 of 8 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Gripping 21 Sep 2012
By Lou
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Wow. This author captured my attention all the way through this book which dealt with a father's grief and anger over the loss of his son whilst trying to cope with the day-to-day emotions of leading his normal everyday life. It is extremely well written and certainly, if this author hasn't based this book on personal experience, he is an extremely talented writer indeed. My emotions were all over the place; I shared the father's anger and feelings of letting his child down, shedding many a tear for the family. I have never read a book that has made me cry, but this was so well written and not at all sloppy or predictable and the ending, well, read it and you will know.....
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5.0 out of 5 stars Alex by Adam J. Nicolai 24 Aug 2014
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I feel exhausted now I have finished this brilliant book. I'm not a fast reader and because this book had me on the edge of my seat I found myself rushing it - just to see how it would end. I did slow down and I had to re-read a few pages but it was worth it.

At times this book was very hard to read because the authors descriptive writing is just so good. Also I think being a parent you take on a story like this on so many levels, and questions are raised in your mind. The topic makes a parent's worst nightmare come alive. It certainly makes you grateful and thankful for what you have in your life.

Adam said in his thank you section that whilst writing this book he kissed his children more - I can understand what he meant but my 14 year old daughter's face was a picture every time I gave her an extra kiss and cuddle. I love her and she can sigh and giggle at me all she likes she will understand one day if she becomes a mum.

It was a very good story and I have already purchased another book by this author, but as I said I feel I need a break and read a lighter book, as brilliant as this story was it did leave me feeling a little sad.

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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Thrilling, intriguing and compelling 3 April 2013
By Ignite TOP 500 REVIEWER
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Ian is a father in crisis. His five year old son was murdered six months ago and since then, his marriage has hit rock bottom and his wife has left. He `hears' and later `sees' his son Alex in their home and is given messages in the form of things he recalls Alex saying in life. The reader watches Ian's life unravel around him. He's given warnings for lateness at work as he regularly sleeps badly but wakes late. We ask ourselves what's going on in his life and I was as puzzled as he was.

This is a first novel by an American author and I found it utterly gripping. I wondered, as Ian himself did, if he was losing his sanity, if there was something supernatural going on, if he were becoming schizophrenic. There were many possibilities, all feasible from the writing. The little boy, Alex, whom we meet only in snatches, comes over as a lovely, loving, earnest little boy and his father decides he is trying to impart a message. The journey we take with the two of them and with Alina, Ian's estranged wife, is a thrilling, intriguing and oddly compelling one. I can really recommend this as a book you'll not want to put down.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Must read 2 April 2013
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I adored this and did not put it down from the minute I picked it up until I'd finished. I look forward to more from this author. Utterly captivating and heartbreaking.
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1 of 1 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars A perfect debut novel 14 Dec 2012
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Such an enjoyable book to read. Exceptionally well~written and quite a touching book at times, especially being this author's first. Some very creepy scenes also. Chapters are extremely short, so its very difficult to put the book down, nor will you want to. Quite honestly probably the best debut book I have ever read. So glad I found this little gem. Hopefully I'll get the chance to read more of this author's work in the future.
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8 of 10 people found the following review helpful
4.0 out of 5 stars A haunting and emotional rollercoaster 30 Sep 2012
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Having just finished this book, I wanted to say how impressed I was. The writer gets right inside the mind of Ian, the main character, truly understanding his grief at losing his only child and his guilt at not being there for his son in time of need. As Ian begins to question his mental state, so do we the reader begin to question whether his "visions" of his son are really just figments of his imagination or if there is something supernatural at work here.
As the book progressed I found myself unable to put it down, but at the same time it actually instilled a little fear into my mind.
The storyline was not at all predictable, I didn't see some plot points coming at all. Well written and highly recommended!
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3 of 4 people found the following review helpful
5.0 out of 5 stars Excellent 30 Nov 2012
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This is a powerful story, one that seems to smoulder for a long time, looping and weaving, teasing you as to where it is actually heading. This serves to create a powerful mood and a strangeness that gives it a solid feel and a strong sense of direction, drawing you into its depths as the pieces slowly begin to converge.
The increased pace peaks as if fireworks filled with tension and emotions are suddenly released, erupting in a satisfying and exciting way as they light the path to its gripping and touching finale.
This is a work of true class and quality, one that deserves a wide audience.
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I enjoyed this book however I did find it to be rather repetitive. I would recommend it to those who enjoyed other books by the same author
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